22nd feb 2019

I'm at home in Sheffield.

I've peed into a pint glass and my urine is cloudy with sperm. I've left the glass on the shelf.

my mum and dad come into the room to tidy and they move it onto the piano. I'm suddenly nervous they will find out what it is and what I've been up to.

I try to find a moment to remove it and Chuck it out doors, but there's never a free moment when I won't make myself look suspicious. perhaps they already know.

I have a few drinks that my dad offers me, and immediately I'm losing control and stumbling over things. the last thing I want to do is spill this.

eventually I see a gap where I can get outside.I throw it into the front garden.

my dad comes out. I tell him I wanted to see what the weather will be like. I ask him how his last few days were. he tells me that he went to see Shakespeare at the Bristol theatre with the turners, and he tells me it was really bizarre but also brilliant.

zimbabwe family 20th feb

ao getting too close to me, I getting very annoyed, she is like a leech, I have to sting her with bees to get her off me.

I have a new sword, I'm climbing up this stairway to be with my brothers, and this nasty creature is trying to get me, but by using my sword I protect myself from him.

I'm with my family in Zimbabwe, we are all together, my parents are talking about Nelson Mandela, speaking his praises. my mum is trying to arrange a way for all the children of zim to be able to have a meal with the children from the UK. it's proving a difficult task, it involves a big tin of baked beans, at one point we give up but then we are in South Africa and we are in the city and things become more possible.

the old lady with bad eye-site

I'm sat with an old lady . she has very bad eye sight , but she has various glasses that help her to see.

she wants to show me old birthday cards from her life.

she shows them to me. I help her read the writing on them. it's in big letters, they are from her sons mostly.

one of her sons turns up.

he seems like a nice enough chap, but then he has this extreme religious side that he feels he needs to convert everyone to Christianity.

I notice how big his eyes are, and then I see something I've never seen before, that you can see the eyes by looking in the ears. indeed there are 2 eyes in the head, 2 large eyes at the front but connected to then you can see through the holes of the ears to the eyes as well, making it look like there are 4 eyes in the head. all these old people have this.

the spirit of coed

dream 8th feb.

playing music, I was asked if I could play, arriving through the corridor of coed. I'm with Fay, it's crowded, want to get to the front, find myself with the band members, the lead singer, I'm on the list to play so I am asked, I have to run back to get my mbira, I'm worried about what songs I will sing.

I am changing my clothes, I put on all old clothes, blue, but comfortable. I run back to make it in time.

clothes.
remembering songs,
...


first dream

coed showing a group of people around, in particular the tree that was struck by lightening. it has a little heart painted on it where the big branch fell off over the path.

it carries the spirit of coed, you can hear the voice of it clearly I explain to the people.

I find the little flute that hangs down on a string, and play out loud. it is a clear strong noise which attracts people's attention.


I climb down onto lower path and tour the group around, and we get to the strange poly tunnel. it's difficult to fit through the frame.

the chat host celebrity

I'm in my car on a steep hill in a rich area of a city, like Sheffield.

I meet a lady at a door, covered in makeup. she has a superiority complex.

I have a van and the back doors have fallen off. I have difficulty getting them back on.

I am at a festival meeting lots of really inspiring people. they are making music and it sounds great. Mike and suzy are there.

there is this guy who is a chat host celebrity who is quite old and does not have any issues saying challenging things about the culture. he is taking about the destruction of the environment. he is making people aware how bad things really are .

don't get trapped by the doors

the confession, talking to dad

the girl who I give some herb water, she starts vomiting, but then gets better, jumps around the place. music

the super market, shop closing, wanting to rescue waste food, they prevent me getting the waste, electronically shut down. dogs. I have to be very careful not to get trapped by the doors

meet connor, we have a good chat, prepare to do some music together. I'm really happy to see him.

the girl with dark hair

4th feb.

I see a beautiful girl, with dark hair. she tells me I have to stick with her because I've already slept with her. I had forgot about this, but I'm happy she has told me this because I really like her.

mathu knows about her too.
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I'm preparing to go on a journey.

I've planned to leave from a little tiny island off the coast of South Wales.

I'm running late.

I've been chatting to the colonial of this little island. gilly is there, sitting in a strange casket with a night gown on. she wants to tell stories from the past. her memories. I get delayed listening.

I've got to get around this island to the airport. I was going to get a taxi on this island but people tell me that there are no taxis here.

I see herbs swimming in a big pool of water

it's makoni

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it's getting dark.

stags rutting -jan. 2019

I'm with my brother James, and we are traveling together with Brecon. there's a dangerous part of town which I remember as a kid, and James doesn't want to walk this way but I say it will be easy, it's only short. it's the most direct route home. so I eventually convince him and we cycle down or run down and I am going a little too fast because of my fear, and I slip off a big slope, and can't hold on. I'm falling through the air with the ground far below me.

I land safely somehow by twisting my body in the air.

I'm a the bottom of a garden. the dangerous people in the flats will be around soon, perhaps they will mug me.


I walk back up round the flats through the garden, right around the tower block where I fear the dangerous people live. but what I see surprises me.

all these teenagers are hanging out smoking Weed and taking drugs. and they all have ginger hair. and they are all at different levels of the stairs.

they look like modern flower fairies gone a bit pixie.

it's quite a spectacle.


they disappear when I try to photo them.
fast.



now I meet this boy at a party. he's been fasting because he's not got money for food. somehow I've managed to get to the front of the line , and have the first meal. but I don't want to share it with these hungry people because I know they haven't worked for it.

so I eat to myself. they tell me, the poor people, they have been living off nitrogen supplements.


which I didn't know you could get.

the guy with sunken cheeks looks longingly at my greens.

now we are in a swimming pool. and it's very crowded. everyone is playing games. some of the games are dangerous. two men have these curved blades that they fit to there arms and they are both sharpening them on the others blades, as if they were two stags, clashing horns.

they proclaim spiritual authority, and compete for the lead position.

that's why there is so many of them, crowding the pool.

chitwn products

2 dreams

1.

I'm with my mum. we are in church. the church musicians have been diminishing. mum is asking if I can help them. I know they need my help.

I have some new songs from mashonaland East.

2.

I'm in chesterfield. I see these pointy mountains in the distance. they are red and black, the setting sun shining on them. I am feeling lonely and confused. I meet a Jamaican who leads me into his house. all his friends are there.

he tells me, when will you set up chitwn products?

we are blessed

dream jan 6th 2019

I'm at a really big concert, in a huge arena. I've got my smartest clothes on because at some point im ment to get on stage and perform on the piano.

suddenly it's my time. my parents see me and tell me to tuck my shirt in, they see a bit of dirt on it and wonder whether they have another shirt. but no there's no time.

I walk onto the stage . there are many people, it's mostly dark. I have to play a solo to fill the gap between big performances.

I see Zoe. she's lying down somewhere. I see her son, she's staying in a big house all alone. I've got some responsibility here.

next I'm walking with my family, and a few friends. we are going up the hill. we see magpies. they are flying and then they explode. ms dad has been playing a practical joke. the kids through food for the magpies and then they watch them eat it and the food makes them explode. it's quite dangerous. my dad is concerned that its cruel. I comment something about there being so many magpies.

now I see lots of birds. they are moving towards a big barn, gathering in. they want to see something. even a cat is with them. looking into the circle. I gather with them. in the center of the circle the mandere family have put on a function. they are singing and dancing and a number of people have gathered to watch. it just so happens that this coincides with my gathering that I'm with up the hill.

we are blessed.

tracking the invisible message

I'm due to be meeting friends

in Cardiff

I arrive late as I meet a stranger who I chat to who gets me a job spraying tools . I'm told that I can easily be paid 200 a day

it's not environmental friendly work

I will have to wear a mask

I'm worried that I'll be late meeting my friends

I have to learn how to work fast.
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I am with jon young. we are walking through a place like an old town on a hill. we walk past a church and down the hill. Jon gets really excited. he's seen something on the ground which tells him something. I have no idea what it is. but I follow him at a pace as he tracks this invisible message. "this is unusual" he kept saying... suddenly he sees a jacket that has been left on the floor at the side of the road. he knows that this is the sign he's been looking for.

we find ourselves at a house. he walks straight in without knocking the door. he goes up to a bedroom while I remain in the kitchen chatting to the owner of the house. it seemed like such a strange entry I felt a little rude and out of place, but I assumed Jon knew the owner.

Jon is back down now. we converse a little with the owner. it turns out that this is a bed and breakfast which Jon has been to before.

....

I have a vague recollection of the botanical gardens in Sheffield.... or some ancestral landscape that's been done up in such an elaborate way.

The image that lies behind

New year - 2019

I see bendle, he has the same hair as mathu.

we are in this school. I have to pee. Maddy is here.

I chat to her. she is learning allot.

I'm in a place that is like a big accommodation space. lots of rooms.

I meet Mar. I'm really excited to see her again. math is there and she sees my excitement. so she says that I should go to meet her and take her as a partner. I see her chopping vegetables. she sings and dances as she does this. she is changed now and very independent.

others see my excitement too. like when fresh snow has fallen and all you want to do is go play in it.

we are redecorating the walls of the room we are in now. taking of the wall paper and revealing what lies behind. we are trying to simplify the images that lie behind. and clean and tidy them up.

Conor and his Clan

dream dec 7th 2018

I have returned to my home city , Sheffield, where I was born. now it's called the city of love. for some reason, before, I could only see the problems, but now, I see how the people here really have something special . how was it I could not see things before?

I want to see my best friend who I've not seen in ages. his name is Connor. now I'm walking towards the woods in my beaten up shoes, and I see him sat on a horse that his friends have all given him. they know the struggles he has gone through. and they have chosen him now as their leader. it's like I'm seeing him now like a robin hood character.

interestingly, as he moves on the horse, I see that it is actually not a horse he is sitting on, but rather he has become like a centaur, half man half horse. he's still getting used to the new movement this brings.

I greet him and he me. He says, how come you arrive in this fashion? I was expecting to see you enter the city on a chariot or something? I tell him, this was the plan, but for now, all I have is these beaten up shoes.

We talk about the times and the signs that we should be expecting to see emerging now.

I want to walk and talk, but Connors horse legs are still working on a life of their own, so I have to follow him into the woods.

Connor has a pet deer, who he follows when in the woods. deer wants to show us something. He leads us both to this big tree that has fallen down. underneath the roots a old dog is lying in the cold slowly starving to death. underneath the dog a seal is lying. seal wants to keep the dog warm to keep her alive through her own body heat.

I cry when I see what's happening, because it's what we humans have lacked. We think we are so much better than the animals, but we can't even do what this seal is doing for this dog. if only we could model this somehow...

this dog was forgotten about by the people who lived on the farm. she had given birth many times, and was the mother of miko, who we all still remember.

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me and Connor wander on and continue talking about the signs that we should be seeing emerging in these special times.

with the Girl who I like

Dream nov 29th 2018

I am with that girl who I like.

We are walking together by a river. The sun is shining. It's spring time.

She's holding my arm while we chat.
"Being in heaven..." she begins,
"Is like being with you?" I answer.
She smiles at me, "I was thinking of saying 'like waking in the woods in spring time'"

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I'm on some train tracks. A big train is coming slowly towards me. I must jump into this train and climb aboard. I'm nervous but I manage to get a hold, as it's only moving at a slow pace. I find a sheltered spot at the back of the train. I hope no one has seen me.

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I'm in a big field. A festival or gathering is going on. A special ritual has been done and now all these herons hatch out of eggs in the big open field and start flying up from the ground like drones going on a swarming mission. It's a spectacular site. Thousands of herons in the air. Perhaps they are pelicans.

Uncle tipi Phil is there and he makes a comment. "this is the sign we've all been waiting for"

There are other birds I see now, joining the mix. Swans and ducks mostly. The swans are enormous. I see their leathery feet. They are built for the cold months. They won't have any difficulty with the winter.

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New burial chambers

Josh. Me and him singing along to some music which we were listening to. Some people from other countries playing the music. He has confidence to make jokes to them and talk in funny accents.

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I'm in the countryside around coed.

I am flying above the landscape, or seeing a map. Tom has told me where these new burial chambers are, with these ancient remains of settlements.

I scan the landscape for them and see them clearly in the fields. Bumps and circles. I am particularly noticing how they align up to specific directions. One burial chamber is in direct north South alignment with a long house chamber. I know it must be because of the mid winter sun.

I go down onto the land to check it out. By a community center I meet this black lady who is disabled. She asks me if I'm any good at massage. I say I can give it a go. So I give her some cushions to get comfortable and she sits down and I work on her shoulders.

She has great trouble with her legs and hands. They never formed properly so they are stunted in growth. She can't walk. She shows me how she had to have this special treatment on her fingers to make them bigger so that they would be more useful. It involved wearing rings that would expand them.

I live here

I'm with 2 other cyclists. I've got this train to this northern town. There's a growing project up there I must visit. We just need to go down the hill from the train station. We arrive at this house. I'm going to be staying in there. First I must pee. Then this lady comes out to go to work in the dark. She doesn't see me but I close the door behind her of the flat garden. She worries I'm a burglar or something, so she questions the noise. Who's there she says.

I'm unable to give her a reasonable answer and panic so just approach her and tell, fuck off, I live here ..

She is panicked by my panic response.

This house I'm staying in is a friend's flat. He has given me a key to it.

It was going to be a cooperative or something in this northern town but then the project never happened.

special tickets to the festival

Dream nov 18th

I've jumped into the car outside my parents house. They are driving.

I'm with my friends in the back. I'm really excited. I ask a friend to pass some apple juice. It gets a bit spilt. But it's ok.

We are driving to this festival. There's been some kind of accident on the road. Blockages snake back up the motorway. So we find a turn off and go down side routes. It's bumpy and muddy.

We arrive soon at the gates. Now we've joined with a whole group of people who have special tickets into the festival.

We all manage to get through on special tickets but only just. There was an issue with the card I used. My tax documents were problematic. Anyhow, the ticket guy could see that all my friends were in so he let me in. I chat to my sister who's got in and I tell her I'm going to rearrange the tuppawear I've got, so that it can all fit in my bag.

Gemini has trouble with her knees. She can't stand straight. She always has to stand at an angle because of the training that has conditioned her to stand with a pose. It's causing pain. I have to help her by teaching her to stand straight.

girlfriend

Dream Saturn moon November 13th.

I remember seeing D. He gives me some money. I give him the calendula. His energy is like a king.

I'm taking to my dad. I have a girl friend, but I'm too scared to tell my parents. I make a suggestion to them, knowing that they will be able to read between the lines, but somehow because I've not chosen this girl friend, I'm nervous about being clear with them.

damaged laugh

Sarah is saying to me, once people laughed while I was singing a song in a circle and since then my laugh has been damaged.

Her pupils are changing size continually, and her eyes look swollen.

I have been living in this attic where I have been making art works. I have two artists, a man and a woman who are interested in seeing these arts. I have drawn a picture of a bear on a bed sheet. It's a bit messy. They find other things interesting which I don't value.

medicining - the middle quality

S B. Want him to recognise the work I have done in southern Africa.


Lino, see him I a caravan. Large static. In a back garden. Not his. But people are moving into them in Brighton he says.

He tells me about the 3 qualities of a.
mhondoro

The middle quality is Medicining


I see a new Christian people. Led by a young person.

They are by the water.

A large group formed of smaller groups. Each small group, one person covers their eyes with a cloth. While being witness by the others to their own prayer which they speak out loud.

There are people from many nations represented.

I am walking by the coast. I see water. I walk down to this clear crystal lake. There are people sat on the other side but it's the shore side. As they talk to me the lake starts to ripple.

Now I'm with mathu, and we have navigated over this big water feature which drains the water from the sea.

Spiritual paths

I'm at coed. Feeling ill.

A gathering has been organized. I don't know if I can attend. But I want to.

Anyhow, I'm lying down in the bee area. And a load of people come dressed up ready to do a ritual. The ritual involves John the bee man. It's to do with the true story of Easter.

Lynette reads about the true story of our king the savior, how he doesn't rise from the dead like Jesus did. But we embrace the spring anyhow.

Everyone is stood around. I have to get up from my sleep to witness the ritual. The costumes are very elaborate.

Now people are leaving and I'm worried I'll miss them. Because I'm ill. But I manage to get up and follow. And I've gathered my cloths together to get into the ritual spirit.

I find myself heading to the wellow garden, my brother has put on a play performance in the garden, all my friends are there singing. I see Gemini and the others from coed. It's intensely moving. The song my brother is singing is a pagan song which has these rounds to it, about love. I ask my brother how did he get to do this in the wellow garden. He says that its not the wellow garden.

I nowlook closer. And see that I'm in a similar garden but it's different.

We are in the city. Ancient stone work around the house, but clearly bath stone. James shows me just outside the house. Some of the most amazing intricate stone work I've ever seen. Detailed patterns that look really modern. Abstract and complex. I'm reminded of the sculpture I see in Zimbabwe as well.

Now I'm walking into the beautiful architectural city of bath. The ritual has continued into a processing into a cathedral. Everyone is enjoying themselves and costumes are flying. I'm wearing my white cloths, in combination with a black and a red one. I'm not sure what they mean, the black and the red. I think of the Cuban flag. It has a slightly more edgy look as opposed to the pure white cloth, which seems more appropriate for Jesus s death and resurrection.

I see two of the girls I met at Doris. I want to chat to them but keep losing them amidst the crowd. Now the performance takes a different turn. A heavy metal dj starts playing some really edgy heavy metal in the church and metal heads get up to nosh to it. I join them for fun because it seems so inappropriate in church.

One of these guys is triggered by the cloths I'm wearing. He approaches me to threaten me but I dance with him and he can't get near me. I display my agility by climbing up a monument outside the church and standing on one leg. It's high, but I don't think he will follow me.

I am told by him that its not what I am doing that he can't do. It's the cloths and authority that they represent. He can't touch me. I have a greater presence.

I am shown that this man has been an extreme sports person. He is telling me about how he concurred his fear. Little by little taking risks. And each time it gave him more confidence. He told me of a risk he took that changed his life. He took a sky dive over the city that went wrong. But he survived it. His parachute did not open properly, and he fell through this building onto the sports field. There were eye witnesses. He was rushed into hospital. This experience he says put him on his path in life.

troubled themes

There's a woman who is evil and is chasing me. She wants to stop me connecting to a girl friend .

Badger has been injured, his lungs are suffering.

I'm complaining to the dentist about the injections that were done to my teeth

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Simon with Joe, Simon complaining to Joe about stomach pain,

I sense underneath that there is something spiritual about it because...

I have been looking out of my parents window and the little bits of sacred wood from the sekuru stick sacred wood, that I tasted and spat out, because it was too bitter, and then chucked out of the window have been carried away by a plague of locusts. Big ones. And the scene is one of a desolate wasteland. It's like I am seeing the future. But anyhow I tell my younger brother that he should always ask me when he has stomach pain because I have the herbs for it.

...

Previous dream

I am in a school. The time table has got mixed up and my lesson plan all confused, but it's ok because I have seen Rebecca, and I don't mind what subject I do as long as I can be in the same class as her.

hanging off a tree

I am with Saul. I've chipped off the wax off the surface of the bench, but he points out to me that it was not necessary, as the wax was useful for leveling up sheets of plywood.

I'm naked and in a tree, hanging off a branch. It is like a silver birch tree. Some people see me. I merge with the tree to make it look like I'm a tree spirit.

pulling my own tooth

I meet this lady who swears at me, hits me. she calls me a wanker and tells me to walk on the other side of the road. She is a troubled lady. She has voices in her head that tell her stuff.

I pull my own tooth out.

It comes out quite easily.

My sister has been given by my mum this really interesting cabinet which is very neat and ornamental. Mum has been working on it for her.

Marie - She has this white stuff that oozes out of her skin.

I talk to my mum about shamanism. She asks about hand fasting. I tell her the different forms of it.

views

I'm traveling. Through a city with steep roads, like Sheffield. It's like North Sheffield around Hillsborough. But I get up to this higher plateau and now I'm with my mum and we are going around a mountain. We see incredible views of where we have walked. We get up really high. We are going around this high mountain in a circuit.

Dad's head

I have my dad's head. It's been cut off.
I'm with my dad now, and I have given him his head. He needs to take this prayer to the highest powers. I'm nervous about him doing this, but he assures me all will be ok.

choosing

I am given an option of who I want to dance with. I have to choose. I stop and pause for a while and then choose the smallest youngest of the women. She was surprised I chose her.

I am telling some new people at coed to shut up. They won't stop talking. I am telling them that it's not our responsibility to deal with their emotional neediness.

Natural Authority

I find my way to Buddha fields, through crawling along the ground picking up coins as I go. I don't know if they are for me but I feel no one will notice so I put some in my pocket. No one notices. , there is a Tibetan meditation room I enter. I meet a lady who claims things about enlightenment, she is very fake, and passive aggressive, but I say to her. I think you are running away from fear, rather than realising that both fear and love are two sides of the same coin. It's all just fine, everything is going to be well. That's the deeper realisation. She shuts up now. My authority on the situation was deeper than hers. Even though she was older than me. I have N behind me.


I'm in a big hall food being served to many people. Plates are going around, I am worried that I won't get any food, I have a feeling I have to sit behind some women who will be in front of me.
James was also in the dream.

seeking a partner

Football kicked over

The Zimbabwe child in UK taking

The rain, the eggs that have hatched, it's the right time.

The baby tsbvu trees, Grandmother scales.

I meet up with amai p. It is just up near Notre dame. She says that things have been really tough in the last year. But it's been a good thing, as some people really needed the kick to get things done.

I am in an industrial area in Sheffield. I've been out all night and on the phone to different people looking for a party. I couldn't find the party I was looking for. It's getting late. But I find another party.. I'm feeling really horny. I meet these two black girls and get chatting to them. One of them is from rwuanda. She talks about the difference between white and black. I say to her that white people have more fear of death than black people. Which is one of the key reasons why there are spiritual differences in the traditions.

Traditional African culture does not see death as the end.

She agrees. She is quite cute and I want to talk to her more but loose her in the crowd.

I am at Darius place late. We walk out into the getto. Because we have heard cries for help from someone who fell into the dam late at night. I have to put my clothes back on and go to see if they are ok.

Chiwa is afraid of criminals. I say just follow where the women and children are walking and we will be fine.

I am seeking a partner. I consider many options. The temptations are there to just sleep with some one really loose but I held back

the Model

I'm in Sheffield.

I'm at church. I see Bendle and Robyn. They have produced flyers and advertisement leaflets for their herbal business. I'm feeling, what an I doing? I feel overwhelmed by the success of their business and unable to compete. (Personal value, success, fame, recognition)

I meet rich and Jess. I've not seen them for a long time.

They ask how I am doing. I say, it's be difficult to be honest. I missed out on social events in the network, so I feel I have been isolated. Not making the connections that I wanted to make. (Blessing not flowing)

They ask what I'm up to now. I explain my vision for a traveling sculpture show. I explain how this vision came to me in a dream. They comment saying it's a good idea. Jess says that I've always been good with models. I see the model of a hand. The word model is key.

I see myself driving a vehicle. And carrying sculptures to places, and combining the sculpture with performance.

It's a MODEL.
I explain that model means something as a trial. A test. A thing to copy. Not the original. A thing in miniture. Also a thing to follow.

beanbags

I'm with a girl friend. She has chosen me. She is very happy with me. I want to take her someplace private so I can talk to her. But we don't find anywhere. Everyone is sharing bedroom. ..

I pretend that I've come back to collect some fruit because I don't want people to become suspicions that I have a girlfriend.

She is small and light and clings to me. I pick her up with one arm. She has light skin and dark hair.

But I'm not sure if she is the one for me.

I meet rose. We talk. There are family issues in the past that have not been dealt with properly. So there is spiritual work to be done in the family before the path can be cleared.

There are some people sparring to music. I see John and realise that we can go spa too. He gets incouraged. People watch us a spa. .

I'm with my two brothers. We are chatting about bean bags. We all used to have a been bag each. James got the smallest one because the girls always used small ones and when the bags arrived he was at an age where he always wanted to hang out with girls. He was 11. Joe got the biggest one and I got the middle size one.

need to move

I'm in the peak District.


Someone is out to kill me. I've been on the side of people who are politically rebels, and I don't know who I can trust. There are farmers who are secretly working for the powers that be, and if they know who I am they could try to kill me. I'm afraid.

There is football. I'm support the underdogs.

My dad is here. There is a new building being built.

It's like a hotel or new centre.

My brother Joe is here too. He's making a new art work. Like a giant vagina.


This building is like a pub. I'm moving to a new place. To stay.

Seeking home. Friends camping. We need to move.

fortunes

I'm in a bedroom in Sheffield.
I'm playing with a kid, who Tinashe has sent. He's a white kid. He can speak Shona. He's dressed in costume.

I meet my brother. We are going to the sea side. There's a festival on at the sea. This festival, most people are Zimbabwean. But Teresa may is here to. It's like shambala. She has come for the new ideas. Me and both my older brothers meet up for a chat.

There's a gambling room here. A ball tells your fortunes by moving to the different colours.

Cooking

I'm with a very old school friend. We are waiting at the bottom of the road from church.

Ruth is coming on the bus.

We see her.

I meet Adriano. He is with his girlfriend. They are a funny match. But you can see the relationship between them works through the look in their eyes. (My connection to H)

I'm being told how to cook tomatoes. Nigel is showing me the chopping technique. You chop them like this, and then cook them till soft. Then cook them hard for quite a long time till they are all concentrate. There's a relationship between the cooking technique, and how you pleasure a woman.

Wanting to Sing

I'm traveling in a town, it's raining. I am at a music event. I want to perform. (After blessings, recognition, wealth, status)

I have problems with my car, finding parking space. I crash the front lights in, accidentally. they still work, but my car looks a mess. (Access, loss of value, concerned about status)

My brother Joe says I still can't park there. I'll have to move it. All the trouble I've gone to, just because I didn't have the money. (Fuma, not having what makes life easy)

I want to sing. I want to show people that I can sing. (Recognition)

I meet a girl who's never heard of the fwbo. I tell her that this place would not exist if it were not for them

White hair

Big boat, coming into dock. Fast.

I am at the front at the top. Its high and dangerous. There are others. The stopping makes me nearly fall off. There's no hard rail. I meet sailors who are waiting to attention at the dock. I see many more boats. Im at coed. I see transformers. R has bought a massive sword. Its not finished. Its japanese.

We are discussing ways of finishing it. It becomes like a giant penis. There are more of them. I meet someone from T who is an expert at moving stone. Big stone. Its no longer an issue with the sword because we have someone who can move it. I see P M. I admire his corageousness because he can take on people and work with them without even knowing them.

I am being chased by wasps, but less me, more my friend who runs into a room thrgouh glass doors to get away from them.

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I notice my beard has gone white. Now I see my hair is going white. I look completely different. I see the shapes of my head clearly now. The hair has gone. There are bumpy shapes I've never known were there. Its worrying me. Apparently my head needed to be bigger to make room for my brain size.

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reflections -


The wasp nests, Josh, Coed. Seeing the future, is wisdom. white hair wisdom.

retreat to the woods

Im in the woods, with a load of younger people from different ethnic backgrounds. We are queing up for food from a cafe or distributor. There are meals we are waiting for. The food is runing low. Its expensive. There are some hash flapjacks left.

I buy one, and then before the next class starts again i run off and sneek into the woods. I meet Rob. I am going to sleep in the woods for some time. I am going to build a shelter. He tells me he can help, he has experience. We have ash poles. Its like I'm in hiding from society. We are looking for chartwells house. We almost get lost looking, its taking way too long.

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reflections -

the poles and structure make me think about the plants in the woods, also running off makes me think about dropping out. Have i got too caught up in society?

Also - building roof - of house - mending - medicine of woods.