Family ties ...

I'm at a concert. The band leader is drunk. He is an alcoholic. He's had way too much booze but even so he is trying to lead the band. Its boogie music, so its not that hard to get away with it.

Im with my family. Someone has had an accident, a lady. The news is that she has died. Her husband had cancer. Somehow they are connected, the cancer and the death of the lady.. We try to go to the lady. Its a maze, but I know the way. We still get stuck. I'm leading someone down a square tunnel but there are too many wires which cross our path. We have to turn back. There is another way to this underground place. I meet Jesse. We manage to get through a small drainage hole. But on our return we don't manage to get back.

I meet dad. He tells me that the dead persons spirit has now come to live in the family, but it will be ok. This spirit is connected to the alcoholic person. It is also connected to a family friends family. One of their uncles suffered from too much drugs.

journeys through age

AM she tells me people here in this country don't have food too.
.I have a discussion about this, I tell her my biggest moral dilemma about going is this. Z is at coed.
She likes it there more than Unstone because community there.

I meet S, see his house at Lammas. Still building. Strong foundations, has access to do this.
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S new boots. Injury he gets on legs.

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Z talks to S about a cafe restaurant on main road. A view that can be seen. From coed.

Is it the same building she remembers from the past?

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In Sheffield city centre. New eco sauna place being built. I want to plant fruit trees out side it.

Talk to manager. In restaurants the sauna has glass panels. People can see the beautiful bodies through the glass.

Outside the common people look dirty and unattractive.

I recognise someone from the past. I'm not attracted to them any more. Lines have worn age into their face.

Chiwha

I'm with Chiwa

We are at a music gig in Sheffield. Scragga is playing the decks. It's late at night.

I meet Maria

Angry with Maria because of the way she was talking to me. She had changed since having a baby. But her insight has gone deeper. She can see more things.

We argue for quite a long time. But it's simply a miss understanding due to the tones of our voices.

There is a river. The water is very strong.

Dangerously strong.

It's also part of a dam.
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I'm with Maria still. She finds this really deep pool to jump into. She jumps first, it's from a long height. She lands safely in the pool. I jump second , she is nervous I will jump ontop of her, I end up jumping into the same space of water that she jumps into . She is angry with because I nearly jump on top of her. I sink deep deep deep, my eyes are closed. I need air, but I'm underwater, I breath in air even though I'm underwater.

I come up. Me and Maria have an argument on the side of the river. Music is still playing by the gig.

Munted people are everywhere.

There are many different levels to this club. At each level down its more sophisticated. And the security goes up every time. I'm at the very bottom level now. There are these crazy doors.

I'm with Chiwa but he disappears, somewhere amidst a huge crowd, I lose him, and now it's early in the morning and I've still not seen him, but I have seen others who are asking me to get some music together on the Mbira, so I look for Chiwa. There is so much tight security coming out of the building. Looking for him is like a needle in a hay stack.

But then I discover what's happened. He had been arrested for accidentally going through a high security breach, and it's causing a commotion because he is really drunk on whiskey. I apparently saw this happening but misunderstood what it was at the time as part of a comedy performance, because it was such a ridiculous situation.

I have to drive my car up close somewhere to sort this situation out with Chiwa . And a security stops me because one of the cameras shows a security guard my two air rifles. And he comes over and confiscates them. Then I have to go and explain myself. It's a lengthy process. Apparently I needed a licence to own them. But I don't have one so it's going to be a fine. Chiwa is still missing but he was also caught on camera, so he is going through similar fines now.

70450.£ pounds fine is the cheapest it can be, but I explain that I have simply no money. They want to limit me, to shut me down in financial stasis. So as to prevent me exercising my new found freedoms.

And it seems now that many more people have been caught by security and are facing similar fines, because it's through getting the fines that the officers make their money.

I see heather simply running away from the guards, and then Chiwa follows suit, and so I start running too, just get out of the situation. I nearly escape the guard, but then they are catching me, and i wake up.

driving fast

It was always meant to be like this.

Driving with Moyo dewa. Fast. Too fast. We have to stop to get bike lights. We are given the the really good ones, he has not seen them before.

the spider

Her web was sticky

Very few escaped.

This being, that arises, this falls, that falls..

Their bickering was irritating me, but arguing with them only made it worse.
Finally I allowed one of them to take center stage to preach

This being, that arises, this falls, that falls..
Sure, Buddhist philosophy, I say. The others mutter.

Yes the transience, everything that exists will crumble into nothing. Forms are born forms die
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This consciousness seem s to be work
We struggle to hold it together sometimes
We try to build something, to make something concrete even though time eventually consumes all.
In our lives there are many chances to liberate the mind, but ultimately there is only this one chance: now . We have come into this life with purpose. .

Her voice was starting to sound psycodelic, the strange musical filter she used played melodies as she spoke. It rose and fell with her lilt.

It seemed like she was also turning blue.


I sat quietly. it brought a smile to my face, especially with the added musical effects.



Finally when she came to an end it was decided who was going to do the healing on me, or journey for me. my intention- "hey just tell me what it is I need to know! Whatever comes up"

I had considered the question "how can I know the difference between true intuition and imagination? " But I was told that could be a dangerous question to ask.

"We changed the world through lots of laughter and lots of orgasms."

M is in church. She is making a statement for all to hear.

"We changed the world through lots of laughter and lots of orgasms."

There is a chuckle from the congregation.
She now continues to talk but in other languages.

relationships

I meet A M. She shows me that someone is following her. A killer stalker. A zombie. She has caught this person in video and now she is showing me the video. It's not nice.

I meet R. We are digging up roots in the allotment. Some of the roots I want to put into storage but he control checks what I am doing and shows me that some of them are low quality. The parsnips have a beetle. So some of them I decide to eat straight away, using up the less good ones first.

J and M have solved their problems in relationship, but I still feel like I am solving mine. I feel hopeless cos it feels like it's been going on forever.

Shooting the target

Mrs stashek. She is giving lessons to each of us individually, based on the observations of our behaviours over the last trials.

My next lesson is to work on my sexual prowess, and the sadness related to my lack of it.

I deny the sadness, or at least say it's the wrong word, because I know that to dwell on it does not help me. Because I claim that the real cause of my sadness is lack of sunshine. But deep down I know I am trying to cover something up and this is partly because everyone is being a witness to my task.

I am with J. The thin girl with black hair. We know that we are going to get together the question is how. We lie next to one another talking. She has pain in her, which I try to help with some massage. I have to straighten her out. I have to do things properly. But the issues around boundaries are still there, and it's confusing me the relationship between healer and lover.

I am in the park. I have to do some trial shooting with this new automatic gun I have been given by the spirit medium. He shows me the target. I struggle to make the shots because it feels wrong on some level. But then I turn out to be hypocritical because I end up shooting this dog or something else which I should not have shot. I realise it's OK to shoot the target.

Mnangagwa

I met the new president


I have a job working in an office.
He comes, and I am a little unprepared.


We start talking.

Interestingly he tells me about Chinese philosophy. He even has an appreciation of the ancient spiritual traditions.

He is as busy man so we don't have much time to talk. I invite him to come over to my office which is across a little bridge over the river. It is raining heavy now, and so the bridge has been blocked, it's over flowing by the force of the river.

So we can't cross.

I am told by someone that I should encourage him to spend as much of his money as I can because changes are coming.

Chinoyi Caves

Js place. I call out her name.
She hears me. I'm in tears.

Jessie sing song with him.

I climb into bed with a lady.

I am in Chinoyi caves. In the waters underground. There is classical music playing.

connections

I'm getting ready for flying on a plane.

Waiting with my family. It's raining.

I get through customs. And

I meet Wells in the airport.

Before this I meet Robyn next door. I see her and her new baby. She is so small. I meet her partner.

I meet Ayla, Rawley says she is a good artist, many drawings.

Not liking the x-ray machines.
The rains are going to come when I fly.

I meet some interesting musicians at the airport.

I am at Lammas. I'm in Simon and Jasmine's finished house. I'm witnessing the freedom they have. And the view! The big windows that look over the valley. It's raining. I tell a friend I'm with that I don't want to live here because the conditions are not good for growing the things I want to grow.

I meet Luke turner.

"Now we have to look after your children"

Meet C, he asks if I want to write some tunes with me, at first I say no, then I say maybe.

I see M and L. They have been arguing. Now m has a baby she is not getting on well with l.


I'm at a hospital. Simon b is here.


There is singing in Shona, around someone's bed, there are Scottish people who also know the lyrics to the song they are singing in Shona the responses to the song . It goes on for a while . The transition is saying "now we have to look after you the children"

We are all inside. We have to make a statement and say, in someone's absence,

"My name is....
We are strong
We are getting it right
We are sure"


Then there is a bird call. From the skies. Simon says it's a sign. Now he encourages us to go outside.

In the soil where the ground has been prepared around the hospital we are sowing our seeds. I have a bag of wild seed, mixed with a damp material, which I start to spread around. The rains are coming.

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I'm back in the peak District. Pete and Oli and Sheffield friends have built a new house. Well it's more like a barn conversion like coed one. It's like a church. Just the frame is up now, the space is big, it has plenty of room for storage too.

Many people are gathered around. They are all talking about building alternate communities.

Some people are causing trouble. I catch one person trying to break my car. I punch them in the face and best them up to teach them a lesson. They don't come back.

Bendle has been trying to do lettering in stone. It's not very good but he is making money from it. I meet a female lady who is admiring it. It makes me so upset because I know I can do so much better, and want the recognition. I tell her I am going to get a hammer and chisel and start carving right away.

My upbringing is causing me problems according to Bendle 
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I meet Pete, he has a special costume for swimming, it's a loose gown , which has a pocket, for collecting sea shells and pearls.

I'm with P. We are walking in the hills, we get to a big road, it's dark, a car is driving fast, I have to stop walking otherwise it will hit me.

I meet R, she seems happy, she is still tired, she has a persona on computer which is not like her in real life, it's just a digital character. But this is her active self, because she still needs lots of rest.

the Chambwa

I'm in church, I've left a chambwa in the back corner, with some museli and dried fruits.

I have decided to collect it now. There's a little bit of damage on it but it's still ok. It's been here for years.

I get chucked out of church for breaking the rules.

Outside church, I meet my brother. He and a friend have also been chucked out. The music they were playing was not suitable. They were trying to bring in new music with modern lyrics.