I don't want her, i need her...

I hear this music in my dream within a dream and it possesses me. I cannot stop hearing the music in my head and it makes me run and dance. But now I want t to have a rest from the music and dancing but it won't stop. I have to keep on dancing and moving. I try to wake myself up and tell myself it's just a dream but it doesn't work. I slap myself. Still dancing only more frantic. The more I do the more I become possessed. I decide to not do anything but just lie down and rest  now I wake up into my first dream. I knew I would be OK.

Joseph and friends owns night club illegal. There has been a murder someone shot. Someone suspicious was hanging around. I thought something would happen.

I'm at the steep road. It's too steep. It's Where the girl lives. She's not in but when I'm leaving to go to the fair she arrives back. She asks me what I'm up to and I say nothing much and she invites me in for a cup of tea.

We are now at the fair at the top of the hill. There are lots of farms selling their products. Different farmers represented.

Take jessy to see pigs. Jessy needs some medicine So that he don't get I'll. We Net Noah and James. I forgot to put lid on the bee hives. James goes back to check on the bees.

We are Tasting honey.

James tells me mum wants me to go back up to the school fair. I knew she would. She thinks I will meet the girl I want.

I do meet this girl. She has an almost Indian look about her. Her skin is a tanned copper color. I Kiss her. We are  near Rustling road. She knows me and I know her but I don't recognise her from the dream.  She says to me you do want me don't you? I say to her i don't want her, i Need her.

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Her and her friend have taken over next door allotment. It was my dad's old allotment.

I meet The old man who was a sailor. I meet him on a day good for sailing. He wants to take me on his boat. I try to climb on but don't get on. The mast falls in the water. The old man tells me it won't work. The sail is too heavy. He had made too many extensions to the sail and now it needs repair. And the boat. He asks me to go round to the other side of the lake. There are polluted water s. I have been round that way before. Damage done. I have to face the poison. I get my feet and hands in it I worry it will make me sick. I have to climb over a broken building. I slip and a nail goes into my 4 th toe in my right foot. I pull it out. Not gone deep.

I meet a girl who draws funny pictures. She reminds me of R.

She has these faces which tell a story. 

She is friends with R. She gets R to draw a picture. She draws a Christmas tree with some flowers on it. They are a label saying elderflower from Stephen watts tree.   She draws a picture of her self in the tree.

I meet Pete. He is tired. I stay in his room. His mum wants to come see him. She arrives.

I am with a new girl friend who is not right for me. Things don't feel right. She is very demanding of me.

I meet a gold miner who has this rock. A gold stone. He is carving at the seams. He asks me if I can carve. I tell him I can and suggest he gives me the tools so I can prove it to him.