Florida

I am getting off a plane in florida. I have to make the right connection onto a train from the airport. Its very confusing. I am really excited about being in america however. I think immediately about contacting kate and telling her. I get through but its a poor line. 

I then get on the wrong connection. Me and a load of other people are then in this waiting room. We decide to climb out of the top of it. 

Its very exciting being some place new. 

Magic Mushroom Tea

I'm with my family in the peaks. 

I find a load of magic mushrooms with james and we decide to make a cold tea with them. I think it has lemons or limes in it. 

Its brewing for quite some time while all the others except for me and joe are out for a walk. While its brewing, there's a turn in the weather and things cloud over and go colder. I decide that the brew needs tasting and so I have a few big glasses. In about half an hour I feel it kicking in, I see the landscape begin to change shape and form. 

 The parents come back from their long walk and we all get ready to eat our evening meal. 

I have been hiding the mushroom tea, but laura spies it and brings it to the table. 

She says she wants some with her meal. 

My dads eyes perk up, "what's that?" he asks. 

There's a kind of sheepish silence. 

"Umm its a kind of fermented drink." I say. 

Its obvious to anyone who's picked magic mushrooms before that its magic mushrooms, and the brew is full of them, and they haven't broken down yet. 

My dad doesn't fall for it. He realises from the silence that this is something that we have been hiding from him. 

"Its magic mushrooms isn't it?" He hedges a guess. 

"Well erm, yes it is!" My brother says. 

"What will it do for you?" My dad replies. 

I say "it all depends, sometimes you barely notice a thing, and other times it seems like the mushrooms came from another planet" 

My brother pipes up "You might like some yourself! Why not try some? When it kicks in for you, you won't mind sexual pillages so much!"

"Sexual pillages!"My dad chuckles to himself and we all laugh with him. 

I am aware of the healing side to the magic mushrooms, and I am aware that they could be very beneficial for my dad in helping him to let go of certain austere mind sets. I am aware that I share the same kind of mind set as him in this regard which is why I like magic mushrooms so much - they help me to break free of them. 

I almost get the feeling that my dad is going to drink some of the tea. I am reminded of how childish people are around drugs and how we don't see them as special medicines which used in a family context can be very beneficial. I am reminded of friends who would have no problem taking a hallucinogen with their parents. 

Connections with land

I'm in a very old town, like the towns in italy or south france- old limestone walls. I'm in the film "fiddler on the roof" as I can hear the music 'tradition' playing. My cousins on my mums side are here. 

I'm with friends too, and we have been looking for places to sleep, but we are getting disturbed because there is some unrest in the town; some political upheaval is going on, and some mafia are taking over the town and robbing people left right and center. We are having to hide from these crazy people. I find a hiding place on the roof of this tent like building. I manage to get some of my friends up here to hide out from what's going on below. 

I have been hanging out on this windy high up bit of land in somerset. 

I travel down the slope to meet people, but realise I've forgotten by bike back up the hill, so I run back up to get it. It is a really nice bit of land just near wellow.

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I remember being on a bit of land, feeling connected to it, it was very fertile and sunny. I think it was abroad somewhere. I remember hearing the symph track and how it was so good to listen to. I had to thank conor in the dream. Somehow it was connected to getting the land. It was to do with it being a collective project. 

I have been finding that the thoughts of sex are such a distraction to remembering dreams. 

I seem to have a feeling of being by a lake somewhere with friends. 

With joe- lost, I don't know what to do each evening. I have a feeling that I need to go out - see christopher mason. I try contacting john. 

Get in car with joe. Big gates opening. -

Churchy experience - simon - teacher talking - I have these cards - different bits of wisdom on. One guy who contradicts the priests philosophy. 

Gates lead to a river/ canal - this river canal goes over to a space. Tara is there.

The Mass Murderer

With clan sisters. We are in shropshire. Comment re - connection to land - feeling space between.

 See damage to the landscape We meet john simeon. I ask him to show us what he has been researching recently. He takes us to a history museum. We sit down to watch a video. Its a video about the largest mass murderer in america. He is called john johnson. He had a wife as an alias. The video shows just how savage the two of them are when combined. It shows the mass graves and the methods Jj used to kill them. 

The lady giving the talk points out that this guy was also a catholic preacher, to which there is objection from the audience. We become aware that there are catholic people in the audience. 

The woman insists that he is, but she says, "if you don't believe me google it". So a few people get onto their laptops and start googling it. She was right. We see how him and his wife lured people in through making them feel guilty that they would go to hell. 

We see a bit of video of the two of them working. John johnson was blind in one eye, and occasionally white powder would blow out of his eyelids, making his face white. We see some footage of his eyes glazing over, at which point he looks more alien than ever before. It makes us think that there is no chance he could be human, but rather he was an alien disguised as a human. 

I am shown this strange device in the museum. It is a long stick with various protruding simple devices, mostly just more sticks coming off the side. And it forking at the end. I ask what it is and the museum guide tells me that this was his tool he made to help him get the skulls of his victims out of the mass graves he filled, so that he could use them as trophies. 

I handle this bit of equipment realising what a dark history it has had. 

We are told he killed about 200000 people in his life. 

4 dreams - Note form.

Elina - we share work. She has music - she plays me bob dylan - I hear her voice - singing. Suzanne - food link, throwing away an old rotten pork pie. Receiving healing work. - a nun working in ST. Hearing confession. Swimming race - a false start, then one guy is so much faster than the rest - its the welsh swimming contest - tiny pool.  I see a rabbit hiding from the fox, but then the fox sees the rabbit and kills it. I then scare the fox into dropping the rabbit so that I can eat the rabbit myself.

New place, near coed- like a theme park. Very big rich houses, tall trees. At a gathering. Talking about changes, like a festival vibe. People from many circles. Phil gets the train working, its not worked in ages. Some people show me the rosa coed link - its decorated on a board, the work has been done. Dad is here. We discuss setting something up down here like the sacred trust.

We are sat round a table, me hoppi, and a bunch of others. I see some animal cards on the table, and hoppi asks me which one is my card. I say "I don't know, I will pick one for today". Someone else picks one first. It translates as "I need know nothing other than my own name". I get one in spanish. 

It needs translating so I pass it to tamsin, its got lots of O oi uoe ie. When translated it means something like, chickens and ducks are of no particular value. I find myself in a new place, where I am volunteering. I meet someone who I think is kate, but she is not.

Lammas - leeks in the roof, the books get flooded and me and a few people have to fish them out. I find a big river, and I wade into it, and catch a big fish with just my hands. I meet with nigel and zoe and start talking about the bible. "The interesting thing about the bible is that it represents a journey from unconsciousness to consciousness; at the beginning you have God, as the mountain, or the triangle, and at the end you have the individual, the human being. It moves from without to within"I say. "Control" says nigel. He doesn't seem to get what I'm saying but zoe does. I wander off into the woods, I feel I need to spend time on my own. Its cold and windy and wet. I feel isolated and alone.