Sunday, 27 October 2013

Curious relationships

I'm with Jude. We are watching a very weird cryptic film. Its a Disney
film, and it shows all these weird patterns and shapes, and objects
floating through the air, and then the camera pans back and we see
them floating inside a woman's body. There is weird abstract music
playing.

It seems like a random bit of filming with no meaning (its a part of a
kids film so its not meant to have any deep meanings, surely!?), but
my sister insists that is does have a deep meaning. She suddenly stops
the video, rewinds it to the beginning of the weird bit with the
floating objects and declares that its about the female womb
development phases, and the changes that go on internally at puberty.
We watch the video and she points out that all the shapes of the
objects that are floating around are womb shaped - they have this
triangular shape, and these bits which are like ovaries and fallopian
tubes. At first I think its a bit of an assumption about an abstract
bit of disney film but then I realise that she's got a point. Once you
view this film from this perspective it takes on a whole new meaning.
Now weather its a clever bit of brainwashing developed by disney to
get girls to think about their bodies in a particular way is still
speculative, but the suggestiveness of the video really can't be
doubted now. (Or at least that's what my sister reckons).

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I'm with this girl. She has been hanging out with me these past few
days, because I have been helping her walk home from school safely.
Her friends think she is a bit weird because she has been hanging out
with me. She has a crush on me but at first I am unaware of this.

We talk about physical attraction. She wants to know what I find
attractive, so that she can model herself on it as she gets older.
She points out her friends to me when we are at school,  and she
talks about how unattractive "girls" are, as opposed to "women". She
says "look at them, they are like children, only more annoying..."

I agree with her. All her friends are still mentally like children,
and despite the fact that they have got breasts and have hit the
sexual phase in life, they are not mentally adults.  I'm not quite
sure why she talks like this as clearly she is one of them. (If
anything, she is a bit behind most of her friends physically, but she
does have a bit more common sense than her friends). We conclude;
girl-kids/kid-girls at this stage in life are mostly bitchy, foolish,
yappy and annoying, and don't have much common sense.

She then talks to me about her family. Her father has a crush on her
and has been taking pictures of her naked and putting them on an
internet website, where he has lots of photos of young girls. She
actually doesn't mind this, she tells me, but then again, I think that
she is foolish and immature. She actually finds older men a lot more
attractive (she even tells me she has a bit of a crush on her father,
not as much as she used to, but its still there), and I realise now
why she has been hanging out with me, because she has a crush on me.

She shows me her fathers website. I see all these pictures of her, and
girls around her own age, (perhaps her friends) and young girls having
sex with old men. I get the impression that her father is a sex addict.
Perhaps actually he is just a big kid who has never grown up in his
mind, and so is still on a similar level consciously to these girls
(or lower), but then who am I to judge, I've not even met him. I've
just seen his website. He is actually quite proud of his family, and
his website isn't solely dedicated to naked girls and old hairy sex
obsessed men. He has these pages about times he went on holiday with
his family, to beautiful places, and traveled in the wild and went
camping.

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We are now back with her friends again, and I am being ridiculed for
hanging out with her. They think I am like her father, and don't want
to see me with her. I realise that I haven't given them the
intelligence they deserve. They all have a keen intuition, and can see
through me, as though they were psychic. They know I find her
attractive. They think she is a slut and me a pervert.

My friend however is not bothered about what her friends think of her.
She is only concerned with what I think of her, and what my
motivations to sex are; what I find attractive and what I want from a
sexual relationship.

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