sleep paralysis

What happened? Where am I? why can't I move?
Oh god! I can barely breathe! My mouth won't open, and my nose is
blocked! It feels like my head will explode! Will I die?

Help help help! I'm crying out internally.
HELP!!! I don't want to die!

Panic runs through me from head to foot. I manage to just about open
my eyes.. I can see a dull yellowy orange light off to my left. Just
keep calm I tell my self. Listen to your heart beat. I can hear my
heart beat racing... Or is it going really slowly? It hard to tell.
Its still going though and that's the main thing. Keep your attention
on the beating of your heart I tell my self. It feels like my brain is
starved of oxygen. I'm sure this is what it happening.. That's why I
can't move. If I can only open my mouth just a tiny bit I will be able
to breathe better.

Few! I've opened a tiny crack at the side of my mouth. And with this a
tiny bit of strength comes back, enough to move a tiny amount and see
a bit more of my suroundings.. Am I in the shed in wellow? I wonder.
What's that orangey light? Did I leave a candle burning?

I'm realizing now that this is yet again another experience of sleep
paralysis... Oh god, why is this still happening to me I wonder?


I must be in my shed in wellow..

It feels like I'm in the process of having an epileptic fit or
something similar. Far too much activity is going on in my brain to
call this normal.

The panic of going to die has gone, but I can't really move yet. I
just stay focused on my breathing and my beating heart, and wait for
the energy to return. Slowly I manage to open my mouth more, and get
more air. What a relief! I am in my shed in wellow. It looks like I
left a candle burning! Maybe a good thing I woke up! I would not have
wanted to burn my shed down! .. Wait a minute.. No, I'm not in wellow.
I didn't sleep in wellow last night. I slept in adam and liz's house
in walkey. And that orangey glow is the lamp from the street.