I meet my brother Joe, and i chat to him regarding what he's been up to. He has been working hard gathering money, and now he's relaxing and having a holiday, enjoying his time off. Its a birthday for him, or laura who he's with.
He shows me some important things.
Now I'm getting ready for a coop meal. We are looking for the right place to hold the meal and its proving difficult.
We are in quite a built up environment, somewhere close to the city centre.
There are a group of buildings all strung together on many different levels. The streets outside are mostly paved, but there are a few trees. I really need a wee.
The coop group are relying on me to find a place, and I keep running around looking for somewhere for our meal, but nowhere seems right. I keep going down stairs, and I come into a little restaurant. The chef who runs the restaurant has in the past run lots of cooking courses. He is a humble experienced man. He will help us, the coop find a place, and run courses for us.
I leave the restaurant via the back door onto a courtyard, there are a number of salad plants outside. I find a corner to have my wee. I wee for ages and ages. And there are people who see, and yet they are not bothered, and neither am I.
The restaurant is a very cool hip place to hang out in. I rush back to tell the coop people I have found somewhere.
The meal is ready and they are waiting for me. There are 5 places laid, its outside. kristina is missing, and I ask where she is. They say she is on her way. Rosie drops her off, she is wet from the rain, and there has been some arguments between them. She is looking worn out. She decides she has to get off somewhere and can't stay for the meal.
Monday, 24 January 2011
the apple tree
I'm on the hangingwater allotment, and david, the old gardener, is wanting to help me. He says I need to do some liming, so I show him my bag of limestone dust, but he says its not the right type. He has these huge sacks of lime, and he starts filling a large mixing bowl, and attempts to carry the large mixing bowl over to the apple tree, where there is an even larger mixing bowl in the branches of the tree. I can see he is struggling, so I offer to carry it for him, taking it off his hands and emptying it into the bowl in the tree. I've never done liming like this before, but I trust in David's experience, that he must know what he's doing. He goes back to the sack and gets out even more limestone dust, and again, I help carry it, and we keep filling up the bowl in the apple tree, until the sack is empty.
Some friends have come to help me with lifting the lime into the apple tree. There is an old swing still hanging in the tree that comes in useful, which is a bit dangerous, but still strong enough to hold weight. Four of my friends are up in the apple tree lining up the bowl, which has kept growing in size, in the apple tree.
Now the ritual magic begins.
The full moon rises over the hill. Its bright light shines down onto the giant mixing bowl in the apple tree, and the bowl in the branches has been placed at a particular point so that, when the moon reaches its zenith, the trunk of the apple tree casts a shadow over the bowl.
This is the right moment, a cosmic alignment. This is the special technique used by david to lime the land.
Now the apple tree has grown very big. We are having a large gathering under the apple tree, and anne-marie is here. The gathering is a bit like allotment soup. There are people playing games in and around the apple tree. A lot of friends from Coed are here. There are lots of interesting looking art around the trunk of tree. Anne marie tells me that there are lots of amazing stones up in the tree, and that Jo is up there somewhere. I climb up into the apple tree, which now has become like a giant tree house with many levels, and close to the top of the tree I meet a few old friends who show me the old wings I made. "Look", they say, "you made these wings". I'm sat on top of my wings. They are like an aeroplanes wings, only made out of wood. They are at the very top of the tree. I climb down off my wings into a little room. Jo is making little arty objects out of pottery, and is using a really unusual technique for making them. People are sat about watching him. He has a large bowl which he spins very fast, like a potters wheel, and he places his lump of wet clay in the bowl, and in combination with manipulating the clay with his hands, he blows it very hard. Bowl like shapes form in the spinning clay. It is quite amazing. He talks us through the process carefully. He shows us the finished objects he has made using this technique. They are small, glazed leaves and plates and some just interesting organic shapes. Jo says that he likes having something leafy like on each of the things he makes.
There are some objects that are not made out of clay, they are soft. "Are these edible?" I ask Jo. "Yeah", he says, " it does say jam on the box".
So it does! I try one of them.
A group of friends have wandered off from the apple tree to the sea side. I follow them, and we get to the shore just a dusk. all of a sudden I see a large sailing boat setting sail through the harbour entrance straight towards the setting sun. It suddenly looks like the boat is surrounded by golden yellow light and is floating in the air. "Quick! Take a picture!" I say to my friend. The light fades too fast for us to get a picture.
Now I see the boat sailing out to meet another boat, this other boat is a boat from a distant land. The people on the other boat set fire to the sails. At first this seems crazy, but then I realise that this is a symbol of there journey; they have arrived, there is no more travel to do. These travellers are natives from a country that still lives close to the land, that lives in harmony with nature.
The look on their faces are weather beaten.
They meet with the boat from our land.
I am now on a mission with anne marie. She is wandering ahead of the rest of us, and only a few are able to follow her. She is heading south, through many miles of dense forest, wandering in the tracks of a vehicle that had paved the way some years ago. She is laying out carpet into the forest. She must lay out the carpet 10000 trees long. This is the project. We wander into france, and see lots of wild life as we go. Anne marie is always a few steps ahead of the rest of us, laying out the carpet for us the follow.
Some friends have come to help me with lifting the lime into the apple tree. There is an old swing still hanging in the tree that comes in useful, which is a bit dangerous, but still strong enough to hold weight. Four of my friends are up in the apple tree lining up the bowl, which has kept growing in size, in the apple tree.
Now the ritual magic begins.
The full moon rises over the hill. Its bright light shines down onto the giant mixing bowl in the apple tree, and the bowl in the branches has been placed at a particular point so that, when the moon reaches its zenith, the trunk of the apple tree casts a shadow over the bowl.
This is the right moment, a cosmic alignment. This is the special technique used by david to lime the land.
Now the apple tree has grown very big. We are having a large gathering under the apple tree, and anne-marie is here. The gathering is a bit like allotment soup. There are people playing games in and around the apple tree. A lot of friends from Coed are here. There are lots of interesting looking art around the trunk of tree. Anne marie tells me that there are lots of amazing stones up in the tree, and that Jo is up there somewhere. I climb up into the apple tree, which now has become like a giant tree house with many levels, and close to the top of the tree I meet a few old friends who show me the old wings I made. "Look", they say, "you made these wings". I'm sat on top of my wings. They are like an aeroplanes wings, only made out of wood. They are at the very top of the tree. I climb down off my wings into a little room. Jo is making little arty objects out of pottery, and is using a really unusual technique for making them. People are sat about watching him. He has a large bowl which he spins very fast, like a potters wheel, and he places his lump of wet clay in the bowl, and in combination with manipulating the clay with his hands, he blows it very hard. Bowl like shapes form in the spinning clay. It is quite amazing. He talks us through the process carefully. He shows us the finished objects he has made using this technique. They are small, glazed leaves and plates and some just interesting organic shapes. Jo says that he likes having something leafy like on each of the things he makes.
There are some objects that are not made out of clay, they are soft. "Are these edible?" I ask Jo. "Yeah", he says, " it does say jam on the box".
So it does! I try one of them.
A group of friends have wandered off from the apple tree to the sea side. I follow them, and we get to the shore just a dusk. all of a sudden I see a large sailing boat setting sail through the harbour entrance straight towards the setting sun. It suddenly looks like the boat is surrounded by golden yellow light and is floating in the air. "Quick! Take a picture!" I say to my friend. The light fades too fast for us to get a picture.
Now I see the boat sailing out to meet another boat, this other boat is a boat from a distant land. The people on the other boat set fire to the sails. At first this seems crazy, but then I realise that this is a symbol of there journey; they have arrived, there is no more travel to do. These travellers are natives from a country that still lives close to the land, that lives in harmony with nature.
The look on their faces are weather beaten.
They meet with the boat from our land.
I am now on a mission with anne marie. She is wandering ahead of the rest of us, and only a few are able to follow her. She is heading south, through many miles of dense forest, wandering in the tracks of a vehicle that had paved the way some years ago. She is laying out carpet into the forest. She must lay out the carpet 10000 trees long. This is the project. We wander into france, and see lots of wild life as we go. Anne marie is always a few steps ahead of the rest of us, laying out the carpet for us the follow.
Friday, 14 January 2011
dream maps
check out this link to this island i dreamed about.
The dream was very much related to the landscape of this area, particularly the flat bit of fife that stretches out to the sea.
dream maps
dream maps
http://maps.google.co.uk/maps/ms?ie=UTF8&hl=en&msa=0&ll=56.14555,-2.471924&spn=1.239394,2.469177&t=h&z=9&msid=211498691180806611733.000499cc3e4fb56b1d331
check out this link to this island i dreamed about.
The dream was very much related to the landscape of this area, particularly the flat bit of fife that stretches out to the sea.
check out this link to this island i dreamed about.
The dream was very much related to the landscape of this area, particularly the flat bit of fife that stretches out to the sea.
Wednesday, 12 January 2011
clare de lune
Someone is asking me to play clare de lune on the piano, so I begin to play it, but the they say it doesn't sound right,
"Its not sounding like the way you played it before"
and I say "I can play it the way I want to play it, but not how others want me to play it",
She disagrees with me on this point, and I ignore her and begin to play again, but she is right, I was playing it in the wrong key...
Another person comes along, this time a man, and says,
"you need to play it louder at the beginning",
I know this is surely wrong, so I try to demonstrate, and argue that he clearly hasn't seen the score,
"Look at the score", I say, "it says quietly",
I try to sing it to him, pointing out the fact that there is a hidden beat at the very beginning of the piece, that unless you knew the piece you wouldn't know it was there....
I sing it to the man and woman, and now they get where I'm coming from, and I also feel I know where I'm coming from...
The magic of singing...
"Its not sounding like the way you played it before"
and I say "I can play it the way I want to play it, but not how others want me to play it",
She disagrees with me on this point, and I ignore her and begin to play again, but she is right, I was playing it in the wrong key...
Another person comes along, this time a man, and says,
"you need to play it louder at the beginning",
I know this is surely wrong, so I try to demonstrate, and argue that he clearly hasn't seen the score,
"Look at the score", I say, "it says quietly",
I try to sing it to him, pointing out the fact that there is a hidden beat at the very beginning of the piece, that unless you knew the piece you wouldn't know it was there....
I sing it to the man and woman, and now they get where I'm coming from, and I also feel I know where I'm coming from...
The magic of singing...
Tuesday, 11 January 2011
games and mussels
I'm playing some kind of chase game with a bunch of kids. We are in some woods, and basically the aim is that they, all the kids, have to get me pinned down and beaten! Well, there are about 5 of them, and I'm much bigger, so its about fair.
We are now in an open field and one of the kids begins playing boomerang with some roofing slate! This is too dangerous! The slates could take someones head off!
I retreat back to the woods by jumping over a fence, and as they are trying to get over the fence I retreat down the slope into the thick of the woods....
I'm in wellow, I've locked my self in the house, they won't get in here...great! I can rest for a while, these kids are relentless! Granny and pete are in the front room.
Pete says "mussels and oysters are great for cleansing t gall bladder. They are particularly good for women in helping them to heal"
"Really?" I say,
"Yes, the amount of women I've met who have instinctively eaten mussels or oysters, or that kind of sea food, just when there gall bladder is in a real need of a cleanse is remarkable."
"Wow, that is amazing"
I hear the noise of kids coming in through the back door: Granny has let them in, she doesn't know about the game! They come rushing in, and I try to push them back out of the house, but its clearly not going to work... I humbly admit defeat! They have won for now!
We are now in an open field and one of the kids begins playing boomerang with some roofing slate! This is too dangerous! The slates could take someones head off!
I retreat back to the woods by jumping over a fence, and as they are trying to get over the fence I retreat down the slope into the thick of the woods....
I'm in wellow, I've locked my self in the house, they won't get in here...great! I can rest for a while, these kids are relentless! Granny and pete are in the front room.
Pete says "mussels and oysters are great for cleansing t gall bladder. They are particularly good for women in helping them to heal"
"Really?" I say,
"Yes, the amount of women I've met who have instinctively eaten mussels or oysters, or that kind of sea food, just when there gall bladder is in a real need of a cleanse is remarkable."
"Wow, that is amazing"
I hear the noise of kids coming in through the back door: Granny has let them in, she doesn't know about the game! They come rushing in, and I try to push them back out of the house, but its clearly not going to work... I humbly admit defeat! They have won for now!
Sunday, 9 January 2011
notre dame
I'm back at school, I have to complete one more year. I walk out of the old sixform block into the sunshine... I can't understand why I'm baxk here, it doesn't feel right. Surely I should have finnished my education now?
A few of my friends are lying on the grass, so I wander over to join them. There are a mix of guys and girls and, as the weather is hot, a few of the guys have taken there tops off, and in general, its too hot for much clothing.
One girl strips down to underwear for a laugh, and this makes me smile. We all know she could get into trouble for this... She quickly puts back on more clothes.
We are all flirting. Well, this usually means that the most confident of us are flirting, and the less confident of us are sitting around like sheep, wishing we had the boldness to flirt. One guy goes as far as to get his dick out, and there he sits, proudly displaying his semi erect penis in his groin. He's proud of the fact that he's the owner of a large cock.
Another guy takes the same strategy, and both of them soon have all the girls attention, and it leaves the rest of us feeling a bit weird... Are we all supposed to act like this? I must either join this flirting game or leave, cos right now I don't feel comfortable. I think that maybe ill get one of the nice quiet girls to go with me from the back of the group, but I chicken out, and decide to explore the woods!
I say to the group "who wants to come explore the woods?,"
I get little attention; they must think I'm such a child... Playing in the woods!
Fuck em! I think, though I don't really mean it, I'm just jealous and shy that's all.
Soon I'm sneaking around woods just like good ol'days, enjoying the thrill of doing something I know I shouldn't!
One of the teachers sees me, and, since I don't want to get caught, I learn to fly and take all the short cuts... This is so much easier than before!
I sneak into a part of the school that has not yet been finished building. Its very strange. I find my self in a huge classroom, the size of an assembly room or a concert hall, and the wall on one side is all computerised, so that large groups of people can all see what the teacher is doing- its like a giant cinema screen but with more gadgets.
I don't like the feel of what's going on here, something doesn't feel right.
I get the sense that I'm seeing things that the teachers don't want me to see, but since I'm an inquisitive kinda guy, I decide to play a game with them, and wander around all those places I'm not meant to go. Besides, I know I won't get caught, I have super powers!
I am looking for something very important, its like the box of secret files, I know it must be around here somewhere! The teachers are all looking for me now, I must have sounded an alarm! Quick! Better get outa here! But don't forget the secret files, or we will all be doomed!
I'm flying through tunnels, and passageways, and now I'm putting on disguises so they won't recognise me. I've only got a few minutes left, and then I find it! Its on the receptionists desk.
I pretend that I'm an official who needs to sign a letter, and in the process, I slip the box under my arm....
I'm away! On my bike fast like lightening ! I cycle over a lake straight across the water, I'm sure I've done this many times before... My friends are cycling round the edge of the lake. Ill meet them at the other side...
A few of my friends are lying on the grass, so I wander over to join them. There are a mix of guys and girls and, as the weather is hot, a few of the guys have taken there tops off, and in general, its too hot for much clothing.
One girl strips down to underwear for a laugh, and this makes me smile. We all know she could get into trouble for this... She quickly puts back on more clothes.
We are all flirting. Well, this usually means that the most confident of us are flirting, and the less confident of us are sitting around like sheep, wishing we had the boldness to flirt. One guy goes as far as to get his dick out, and there he sits, proudly displaying his semi erect penis in his groin. He's proud of the fact that he's the owner of a large cock.
Another guy takes the same strategy, and both of them soon have all the girls attention, and it leaves the rest of us feeling a bit weird... Are we all supposed to act like this? I must either join this flirting game or leave, cos right now I don't feel comfortable. I think that maybe ill get one of the nice quiet girls to go with me from the back of the group, but I chicken out, and decide to explore the woods!
I say to the group "who wants to come explore the woods?,"
I get little attention; they must think I'm such a child... Playing in the woods!
Fuck em! I think, though I don't really mean it, I'm just jealous and shy that's all.
Soon I'm sneaking around woods just like good ol'days, enjoying the thrill of doing something I know I shouldn't!
One of the teachers sees me, and, since I don't want to get caught, I learn to fly and take all the short cuts... This is so much easier than before!
I sneak into a part of the school that has not yet been finished building. Its very strange. I find my self in a huge classroom, the size of an assembly room or a concert hall, and the wall on one side is all computerised, so that large groups of people can all see what the teacher is doing- its like a giant cinema screen but with more gadgets.
I don't like the feel of what's going on here, something doesn't feel right.
I get the sense that I'm seeing things that the teachers don't want me to see, but since I'm an inquisitive kinda guy, I decide to play a game with them, and wander around all those places I'm not meant to go. Besides, I know I won't get caught, I have super powers!
I am looking for something very important, its like the box of secret files, I know it must be around here somewhere! The teachers are all looking for me now, I must have sounded an alarm! Quick! Better get outa here! But don't forget the secret files, or we will all be doomed!
I'm flying through tunnels, and passageways, and now I'm putting on disguises so they won't recognise me. I've only got a few minutes left, and then I find it! Its on the receptionists desk.
I pretend that I'm an official who needs to sign a letter, and in the process, I slip the box under my arm....
I'm away! On my bike fast like lightening ! I cycle over a lake straight across the water, I'm sure I've done this many times before... My friends are cycling round the edge of the lake. Ill meet them at the other side...
Saturday, 8 January 2011
hidden porn
I am looking after a baby, its noah, and I have to feed him. I have some bottles of milk, and I'm looking for a suitable place to sit down. I can't find anywhere and he starts crying so I sit down where I am on the side of the street, and begin to attempt to feed him. The hot sun beats down on us and I am sure that it will burn his skin, so I try to hold a blaket over us while feeding also feeding.
Took on new allotment off this old guy, he was showing us round. it had loads of resourses, - loads of tools, loads of land, loads of indoor growing space. I felt so lucky that he had given all this to our group. I spent the day going round the allotment finding all sorts of useful stuff. The very last box of stuff I found I opened late at dusk. It had some large phonebook style books in, which looked on the outside very official data documents, yet on the cover they were called Strawberry. Inside they were like the porn encyclopedia, every detail about porn anyone would ever want to know. It showed you even how all the models cut there hair, what equiptment they use; it was a big document, and there was a whole box full of them. My little brother was here with me, helping me to go through all the allotment stuff, but I didn't show him this, I decided to keep it to myself. And now it was time to go to bed, and I took one of these documents with me to look through as it was really exciting. I was sleeping in the same room as my little brother, and I was waiting for him to go to sleep before switching a lamp on so I could look through all the pictures on this bible of porn. I didn't want him to know I was looking at it. He was restless and I think he knew anyway what I was up to, despite the fact that the cover revealed nothing and looked like the phonebook. So I had a look through anyway, and there was everything in them; the full spectrum of models and nudity and positions and techniques, and whatever. And in the morning I felt a deep disatisfaction with my life and I had to carry something back to this place, and I met conor and alys and they helped me.
Took on new allotment off this old guy, he was showing us round. it had loads of resourses, - loads of tools, loads of land, loads of indoor growing space. I felt so lucky that he had given all this to our group. I spent the day going round the allotment finding all sorts of useful stuff. The very last box of stuff I found I opened late at dusk. It had some large phonebook style books in, which looked on the outside very official data documents, yet on the cover they were called Strawberry. Inside they were like the porn encyclopedia, every detail about porn anyone would ever want to know. It showed you even how all the models cut there hair, what equiptment they use; it was a big document, and there was a whole box full of them. My little brother was here with me, helping me to go through all the allotment stuff, but I didn't show him this, I decided to keep it to myself. And now it was time to go to bed, and I took one of these documents with me to look through as it was really exciting. I was sleeping in the same room as my little brother, and I was waiting for him to go to sleep before switching a lamp on so I could look through all the pictures on this bible of porn. I didn't want him to know I was looking at it. He was restless and I think he knew anyway what I was up to, despite the fact that the cover revealed nothing and looked like the phonebook. So I had a look through anyway, and there was everything in them; the full spectrum of models and nudity and positions and techniques, and whatever. And in the morning I felt a deep disatisfaction with my life and I had to carry something back to this place, and I met conor and alys and they helped me.
samhain dream
I am in a dry desert like place. Me and S are making patterns in the sand. The patterns become real things.
Then we are in wellow, and S is helping to clean the house, and he is chatting to J about bees. He tells J that he has bees in oxford too - lola's bees.
Now we are in the garden, we have put a mat on the ground so that we don't get muddy, we are doing contact yoga. S helps uD to do some moves, and it is like a sexual initiation .
Then we are in wellow, and S is helping to clean the house, and he is chatting to J about bees. He tells J that he has bees in oxford too - lola's bees.
Now we are in the garden, we have put a mat on the ground so that we don't get muddy, we are doing contact yoga. S helps uD to do some moves, and it is like a sexual initiation .
the Circle Dream
Travelling along Eccles rd, where arte we heading.
I leave some valuable things with some people,
There is a crash on the road, and ambulances are coming to sort out the crash, but all that happens is that more and more cars pile up.
I'm stood in a group of onlookers witnessing this scene, and we can't believe what we a are seeing. In front of us a bloody deathly sight unfolds, and there is nothing we can do but stand back, keep our heads down, and watch.
All the traffic in all directions has stopped, and there are people piling out of their cars onto the street. We can hear something big approaching down the road. We think it will be some emergency service to help the terrible scene, but something else is emerging. We hear gun shots from down the street, and within a few moments gun shots are all around us, and immediately as the gun shots are heard, a wave of panic and fear runs through the crowds, in all directions. ---
My instincts say Run, run for your life.
I try to go back to the place where I left my stuff with my friends before, the valuable stuff, a camera and clothes and tools; my plan is to grab them and run. I find the friends who I left them with, but they tell me that they transferred my stuff to another friend, just round the next street. The quickest way to get there with all these crowds in the streets is to go over the building in between, so I climb over this building and in doing so I get a view over the scene. There are thousands of people on the streets, and down all the roads as far as the eye can see, cars are piled up, end to end not moving. In the centre of the chaotic scene a large circle has emerged, within which are a group of military dressed soldiers with machine guns, surrounding a large number of cars that had crashed into one another, causing this whole affair.
Something isn't right, from this circle I hear gun shots and there are what look like dead bodies lying on the road.
--
I finally get over to the building to meet these other people who have been looking after my valuable stuff, and I find them, but they do not have my stuff as I had hoped, and the more I ask them about it, the less of a clear answer I get, and its easy to understand why. From the natural ebb and flow of the crowds, we now find ourselves drifting closer and closer to the dreadful scene that we are all trying to get away from.
We hear more gun shots, and this time it is really close. Every one around us panics, and know one knows what to do. We can't move anywhere. People are lying down, to get out of the line of fire, and yet then they are standing up because they can't see what's going on lying down.
trying to push there way through.
One of my friends ( there are quite a lot of them here), a middle aged lady, with a powerful voice, stands up and tries to create some order, she gets everyone's attention with her voice and first tells everyone that we must trust one another. If we don't trust one another then we can't help the situation.
Then she tells us all to lie down. We must lie down to get out of the line of fire, so we do. And when we lie down we enter into another reality.
Now its dark, almost pitch black. We can sense the presence of one another, and also are aware of the force of destruction that we have been trying so hard to avoid. What has changed is that now our minds are united, on both sides. It seems as if we, me and my friends are thinking as one organism. Also the forces of destruction have united into one force, and act as one organism. The lady with the powerful voice speaks up again. She tells everyone about the situation, because she is wise, and can see what is going on. Many people are afraid and don't know if we will survive; the forces we are up against now seem so powerful, and set on destroying us. Powerful voice lady says "look; we have become a large circle. Isn't this what we have always been asking for?".
We all feel like this is something that was destined to happen, and this is because, upon hearing these words, we remember that we have been here before, and if we have been here before, we must have survived, and if we survived, we must know what to do. The key thing it seems is trust.
Now a new leaders voice speaks up. Its a young mans voice and he says "we must travel together through this landscape, as one being." We look around, and our site has grown accustomed to the dark, in fact we have developed an extra sensory vision, we can now see things unknown to us before.
The landscape we are in is a futuristic maze like building, with tunnels and passages, and also big areas of open space. We can sense the places we must avoid and also sense where we must go. The mans voice speaks up again. " Use your infrared site, see the trip lasers, we must avoid these" (its a bit like terminator 2)
We start moving like a snake through this landscape of the dangerous dark. We feel united and , although the forces are against us, we feel we will make it through.
I leave some valuable things with some people,
There is a crash on the road, and ambulances are coming to sort out the crash, but all that happens is that more and more cars pile up.
I'm stood in a group of onlookers witnessing this scene, and we can't believe what we a are seeing. In front of us a bloody deathly sight unfolds, and there is nothing we can do but stand back, keep our heads down, and watch.
All the traffic in all directions has stopped, and there are people piling out of their cars onto the street. We can hear something big approaching down the road. We think it will be some emergency service to help the terrible scene, but something else is emerging. We hear gun shots from down the street, and within a few moments gun shots are all around us, and immediately as the gun shots are heard, a wave of panic and fear runs through the crowds, in all directions. ---
My instincts say Run, run for your life.
I try to go back to the place where I left my stuff with my friends before, the valuable stuff, a camera and clothes and tools; my plan is to grab them and run. I find the friends who I left them with, but they tell me that they transferred my stuff to another friend, just round the next street. The quickest way to get there with all these crowds in the streets is to go over the building in between, so I climb over this building and in doing so I get a view over the scene. There are thousands of people on the streets, and down all the roads as far as the eye can see, cars are piled up, end to end not moving. In the centre of the chaotic scene a large circle has emerged, within which are a group of military dressed soldiers with machine guns, surrounding a large number of cars that had crashed into one another, causing this whole affair.
Something isn't right, from this circle I hear gun shots and there are what look like dead bodies lying on the road.
--
I finally get over to the building to meet these other people who have been looking after my valuable stuff, and I find them, but they do not have my stuff as I had hoped, and the more I ask them about it, the less of a clear answer I get, and its easy to understand why. From the natural ebb and flow of the crowds, we now find ourselves drifting closer and closer to the dreadful scene that we are all trying to get away from.
We hear more gun shots, and this time it is really close. Every one around us panics, and know one knows what to do. We can't move anywhere. People are lying down, to get out of the line of fire, and yet then they are standing up because they can't see what's going on lying down.
trying to push there way through.
One of my friends ( there are quite a lot of them here), a middle aged lady, with a powerful voice, stands up and tries to create some order, she gets everyone's attention with her voice and first tells everyone that we must trust one another. If we don't trust one another then we can't help the situation.
Then she tells us all to lie down. We must lie down to get out of the line of fire, so we do. And when we lie down we enter into another reality.
Now its dark, almost pitch black. We can sense the presence of one another, and also are aware of the force of destruction that we have been trying so hard to avoid. What has changed is that now our minds are united, on both sides. It seems as if we, me and my friends are thinking as one organism. Also the forces of destruction have united into one force, and act as one organism. The lady with the powerful voice speaks up again. She tells everyone about the situation, because she is wise, and can see what is going on. Many people are afraid and don't know if we will survive; the forces we are up against now seem so powerful, and set on destroying us. Powerful voice lady says "look; we have become a large circle. Isn't this what we have always been asking for?".
We all feel like this is something that was destined to happen, and this is because, upon hearing these words, we remember that we have been here before, and if we have been here before, we must have survived, and if we survived, we must know what to do. The key thing it seems is trust.
Now a new leaders voice speaks up. Its a young mans voice and he says "we must travel together through this landscape, as one being." We look around, and our site has grown accustomed to the dark, in fact we have developed an extra sensory vision, we can now see things unknown to us before.
The landscape we are in is a futuristic maze like building, with tunnels and passages, and also big areas of open space. We can sense the places we must avoid and also sense where we must go. The mans voice speaks up again. " Use your infrared site, see the trip lasers, we must avoid these" (its a bit like terminator 2)
We start moving like a snake through this landscape of the dangerous dark. We feel united and , although the forces are against us, we feel we will make it through.
a quest
We each stand up: its part of the ritual...
I see on the floor a pattern - its an indian design...
I look up and see T's wood carving tools, and some of his carvings - he had carved lots of amazing stuff.
We each have our own carving... Mine is a figure sat on top of a building. We each had to find our own meaning in our carving... I was looking for a sign, or symbol... I saw birds and eagles - I was covered in things that didn't look like me - I had bear at my chest, and a badger over my head...
Underneath the carving, there was a building, like a church, and I had to find the key to this building. I found the key and inside was another key. I told someone that this was te big symbol for me; this was a representation of the quest in my mind.
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We come back the next day, and while I walk in T is playing some weird and wonderful music with R and another guy- T is on percussion, and I hear crazy rhythms.
So, we have to get to the beginning of the quest, but to do so, we need to drive quite a distance.... the first thing we need to do is to head through this landscape in the direction of the power station.
When at the power station we have to pass through the gates to the power station - apparently the village has been allowed to be used as a through road right of way, for practical reasons. I drive down that way with S. We see some ufos, and now I'm with someone else - we go the wrong way - S decided to make a short cut.
I am late for course by 45 mins - its ok because T is also late.
When T turns up he acts as though it doesn't matter.. We have to go through the ceremonies, each person is lined up. We are running out of time. I spill something, its a box of pens, on the floor. As I'm picking them up T goes into a trance and says that its time to enter the mind set of the quest, and we are no longer allowed to raise our hands above chest height.
It makes us feel a bit weird.
I am with
A, this time she is cuddling me, not F, and its a bit weird but also nice.
I also see C, we have a big hug, and then we are watching a video and it is trying to brain wash us and its all about sex, and I have to protect her by holding my arms over her heart .
I see on the floor a pattern - its an indian design...
I look up and see T's wood carving tools, and some of his carvings - he had carved lots of amazing stuff.
We each have our own carving... Mine is a figure sat on top of a building. We each had to find our own meaning in our carving... I was looking for a sign, or symbol... I saw birds and eagles - I was covered in things that didn't look like me - I had bear at my chest, and a badger over my head...
Underneath the carving, there was a building, like a church, and I had to find the key to this building. I found the key and inside was another key. I told someone that this was te big symbol for me; this was a representation of the quest in my mind.
---
We come back the next day, and while I walk in T is playing some weird and wonderful music with R and another guy- T is on percussion, and I hear crazy rhythms.
So, we have to get to the beginning of the quest, but to do so, we need to drive quite a distance.... the first thing we need to do is to head through this landscape in the direction of the power station.
When at the power station we have to pass through the gates to the power station - apparently the village has been allowed to be used as a through road right of way, for practical reasons. I drive down that way with S. We see some ufos, and now I'm with someone else - we go the wrong way - S decided to make a short cut.
I am late for course by 45 mins - its ok because T is also late.
When T turns up he acts as though it doesn't matter.. We have to go through the ceremonies, each person is lined up. We are running out of time. I spill something, its a box of pens, on the floor. As I'm picking them up T goes into a trance and says that its time to enter the mind set of the quest, and we are no longer allowed to raise our hands above chest height.
It makes us feel a bit weird.
I am with
A, this time she is cuddling me, not F, and its a bit weird but also nice.
I also see C, we have a big hug, and then we are watching a video and it is trying to brain wash us and its all about sex, and I have to protect her by holding my arms over her heart .
jupiter is interested in saturn
I went round to richs flat,
I sat down, I was going to bring him something,
It got wet from a spilt cup of tea. Also a dvd got soaked and ruined. While I was trying to pull myself together, rich gave me something, got talking, and imeadiatly said, - "everything you have been talking about has been down south, so these projects you've got interested in, when are you going down south?"
I said "I'm not going down south, my plan is to stay here"
Rich felt very threatened by this, his eyes became fearful he and said, "I've seen your deepest darkest self, and believe me, its not easy dealing with this".
I got the feeling of being accused of something, and then I felt like I needed to draw out a trapped spirit in me by crying... I was lying on the ground, and so was rich, and I had to get this thing out, so I started whining and force crying, and it did change things, as rich tried to comfort me by touching my feet. At first this felt nice, but then it felt a bit weird. I looked up onto the wall during this and saw a picture which had some cryptic writing on, - I started figuring out what it said, and I read "jupiter is interested in saturn"
Then to my relief, some friends came round, first a family that rich know, some kids walked into the space, and then after that kristina came into the space. Kristina gave rich a hug, she said she wanted to give him a hug, but she didn't give me one.
I sat down, I was going to bring him something,
It got wet from a spilt cup of tea. Also a dvd got soaked and ruined. While I was trying to pull myself together, rich gave me something, got talking, and imeadiatly said, - "everything you have been talking about has been down south, so these projects you've got interested in, when are you going down south?"
I said "I'm not going down south, my plan is to stay here"
Rich felt very threatened by this, his eyes became fearful he and said, "I've seen your deepest darkest self, and believe me, its not easy dealing with this".
I got the feeling of being accused of something, and then I felt like I needed to draw out a trapped spirit in me by crying... I was lying on the ground, and so was rich, and I had to get this thing out, so I started whining and force crying, and it did change things, as rich tried to comfort me by touching my feet. At first this felt nice, but then it felt a bit weird. I looked up onto the wall during this and saw a picture which had some cryptic writing on, - I started figuring out what it said, and I read "jupiter is interested in saturn"
Then to my relief, some friends came round, first a family that rich know, some kids walked into the space, and then after that kristina came into the space. Kristina gave rich a hug, she said she wanted to give him a hug, but she didn't give me one.
lemon balm
"Where is the lemon balm?"
"Here it is", I hand simon the jar.
"Tea is good but you need to eat it with raisins for its best effect"
"Also", simon continues "in the past, surgeons used to use lemon balm tea to keep there surgical knives clean, it was regarded as very antibacterial.".
I try washing some knives in a cup of tea that I had made earlier and the water becomes murky, it must be doing something.
We are sat in a hall, my brother James is with us. James asks simon about what it was like to kill a deer with his bear hands.
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I'm now travelling through a building in bristol, its like an old school. I'm with peter, and we know that we are on some special mission. We meet some important person who wants to show us round. We are being offered a unique opportunity to use the school for putting on events.
I put on some smart clothes, and we get shown around. Peter says to me, " its really quite remarkable if you just observe what's happening". I walk down some stairs, past 4 very pretty girls stood to my left, we exchange glances.
Its as if we are not really there, its like we are in a dream.
When we get down to the basement, its the PE room. Lots of other bristol friends are down here and we are lining up for something, I look to my left and I catch the gaze of a very pretty girl who is looking right at me.
We wander on and I notice a hole in the wall which looks familiar. I get very excited, for I know that the spirits live through this hole. I poke my head through and see some animal spirits scamper off, and then turn round and come back to greet me. There are 3 passage ways ahead of me, and the middle one and the one to the right have animals spirits in. One is like a badger and the other is like a fox. They are both pleased to see me. I want to stay down here with them and play. But I know I must go back up into the world to interact with this world.
"Here it is", I hand simon the jar.
"Tea is good but you need to eat it with raisins for its best effect"
"Also", simon continues "in the past, surgeons used to use lemon balm tea to keep there surgical knives clean, it was regarded as very antibacterial.".
I try washing some knives in a cup of tea that I had made earlier and the water becomes murky, it must be doing something.
We are sat in a hall, my brother James is with us. James asks simon about what it was like to kill a deer with his bear hands.
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I'm now travelling through a building in bristol, its like an old school. I'm with peter, and we know that we are on some special mission. We meet some important person who wants to show us round. We are being offered a unique opportunity to use the school for putting on events.
I put on some smart clothes, and we get shown around. Peter says to me, " its really quite remarkable if you just observe what's happening". I walk down some stairs, past 4 very pretty girls stood to my left, we exchange glances.
Its as if we are not really there, its like we are in a dream.
When we get down to the basement, its the PE room. Lots of other bristol friends are down here and we are lining up for something, I look to my left and I catch the gaze of a very pretty girl who is looking right at me.
We wander on and I notice a hole in the wall which looks familiar. I get very excited, for I know that the spirits live through this hole. I poke my head through and see some animal spirits scamper off, and then turn round and come back to greet me. There are 3 passage ways ahead of me, and the middle one and the one to the right have animals spirits in. One is like a badger and the other is like a fox. They are both pleased to see me. I want to stay down here with them and play. But I know I must go back up into the world to interact with this world.
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