I am with Kristina, and we have been making art work, which we are now showing to our friends. We are going to auction off our work, and see what we get for it. Kristina has done a painting in an impressionist style, and when she shows it to our friends they all love it. One of them really wants to by it, and when this picture goes up for auction he bids the highest, and pays about 600 pounds for it. Me and Kristina are surprised that it sold for so much, and Kristina is very pleased with herself.
Her mum phones her up and is also very pleased with her when she hears the news.
Kristina is happy, but she is wondering where her love is. She wants to find that special person who can love her. She is searching for that person.
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Now I am with Elise and some friends. Elise has been taking photos, and using special effects on the photos to make them look weird. She had projected the photos up on a screen and it really surprised one of my friends, as the photos were strange, and magical. One of them was a picture of Elise herself, and the effect had blurred out all the face other than the eyes and mouth. It was like something from the cheshire cat in Alice in Wonderland.
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I am now at an event. Its a seed swap and information swap, and general social for people who are interested in growing. I am there to give out seeds and talk to people about herbs and wild medicines.
I meet Adriano and he asks me about meadow sweet. It is just flowering now, and I tell him about putting the flowers in drinks. I say that meadowsweet is a cure all, 'makes you feel human again' plant, which has been used for so many different things, that the best thing would be to look on the internet for a detailed study. We have a computer with us, so that's what we do.
Robyn is there and all of a sudden we are in the woods looking for plants....
We are back in the room with people now, I meet Diane, and chat to her about growing things and how the allotments are going. There is a table with lots of seeds on. I am just about to head off somewhere, but find a package of seeds of squash that I thought I had lost, but here it is. I am very happy.. I hope someone hadn't thought they were for giving away as it would be disappointing to find them gone.
Wednesday, 29 June 2011
Friday, 24 June 2011
poisoning
The pagans have been trying to poison the christians. I can't remember what plants or methods they have been using, but it is quite an old tried and tested method, one which was used may back in history. Also, they are poisoning them, as it is a re-enactment of what happened, and this is not serious, its just so that we can experience the past. In the story, the christians figure out that they have been poisoned, so they try to get back the pagans, by poisoning them in return. I am playing a part as a christian, and I take, symbolically, foxglove to the door of the pagans house, break off a bit so it looks edible, and leave it just outside on a tree stump. I see one of them, and I tell them to put up a big poisonous sign above it, as I know we are just acting here, and it would be awful to make a mistake.
They put up a sign, and I feel relieved.
I am now in a wearhouse in bristol, and I meet Joe. We have to get ourselves to meet james and jude, which we do, and together we travel across bristol, the colours of the evening in the sky.
Mum is cooking and she has been given
Dead wood pigeon and doesn't want to deal with it so she gives it to me, as I am happy to gut it and do necessary preparation on it. I am surprised at how big this pigeon is, and how bright the colours are on its back.
I meet John Coltraine and he takes me to the sea side to show me something, another bit of history. He tells me to watch the ocean waves, and to tell him what I see.
I see some birds swimming on the ocean, and one of them has got oil around them. Its just a little oil, so I think nothing of it, but then I see in the waters that oil is coming in from somewhere, and its making all the birds sick. I see the ocean waters fill with black rainbow oil, and it sticks to everything, and damages it or kills it.
They put up a sign, and I feel relieved.
I am now in a wearhouse in bristol, and I meet Joe. We have to get ourselves to meet james and jude, which we do, and together we travel across bristol, the colours of the evening in the sky.
Mum is cooking and she has been given
Dead wood pigeon and doesn't want to deal with it so she gives it to me, as I am happy to gut it and do necessary preparation on it. I am surprised at how big this pigeon is, and how bright the colours are on its back.
I meet John Coltraine and he takes me to the sea side to show me something, another bit of history. He tells me to watch the ocean waves, and to tell him what I see.
I see some birds swimming on the ocean, and one of them has got oil around them. Its just a little oil, so I think nothing of it, but then I see in the waters that oil is coming in from somewhere, and its making all the birds sick. I see the ocean waters fill with black rainbow oil, and it sticks to everything, and damages it or kills it.
Sunday, 19 June 2011
crazy music iprovisations
Meet rich
Talks to me about his projects
And mentions gs, I have to walk away,
But also have to pay attention to what he is saying to me as well, - I have to walk away from gs too.
We are going to have music event, me and conor are going to practice some songs for it,
I call off, because I don't feel ready yet,
But then realise I must play stuff with him, even if its only improvised.
We are in a big upstairs hall in a building, me an conor. There are a few mics plugged in and some instruments lying around,
We have done some music playing practices here before, but this time it happens a lot more spontaneous.
I start singing really high notes, conor joins in, harmonising with them, and i go into a trance, and I begin to draw huge spirals on the floor, one continuous long line all the way round the room, while changing the pitch of my voice. I start growling and howling and making all these weird noises. There is someone in the room witnessing our performance, and both me and conor get the feeling that I have really freaked them out. Conor says its ok, and they say that too. It was just a bit of a surprise.
I end up lying in the corner of the room... There is some graffiti on the wall, infact all the walls are now covered with graffiti.
Some people are improvising on the piano. They want me to join in with them, so we form a trio, and they hold a drone rhythm on the lower half, while i improv doing lots of really weird stuff over drone, it is totally wild again, atonal, and even though they are surprised at how wild the sound is, it does work, and sounds really great.. I am realy enjoying myself!
Talks to me about his projects
And mentions gs, I have to walk away,
But also have to pay attention to what he is saying to me as well, - I have to walk away from gs too.
We are going to have music event, me and conor are going to practice some songs for it,
I call off, because I don't feel ready yet,
But then realise I must play stuff with him, even if its only improvised.
We are in a big upstairs hall in a building, me an conor. There are a few mics plugged in and some instruments lying around,
We have done some music playing practices here before, but this time it happens a lot more spontaneous.
I start singing really high notes, conor joins in, harmonising with them, and i go into a trance, and I begin to draw huge spirals on the floor, one continuous long line all the way round the room, while changing the pitch of my voice. I start growling and howling and making all these weird noises. There is someone in the room witnessing our performance, and both me and conor get the feeling that I have really freaked them out. Conor says its ok, and they say that too. It was just a bit of a surprise.
I end up lying in the corner of the room... There is some graffiti on the wall, infact all the walls are now covered with graffiti.
Some people are improvising on the piano. They want me to join in with them, so we form a trio, and they hold a drone rhythm on the lower half, while i improv doing lots of really weird stuff over drone, it is totally wild again, atonal, and even though they are surprised at how wild the sound is, it does work, and sounds really great.. I am realy enjoying myself!
Friday, 17 June 2011
squeezing a building
Often I write down dreams in note form on my phone as I don't have energy to write them out in full when I am in the semi awake state.
Here is a dream in note form.
Mum - lift
Going to go with alys, we get separated, can't get back in touch with her.
Trouserless, at a party
Meet robert dunseath,
So over joyed, we hug, and I cry a tear.
I have important work to do and people to meet,
Meet lots of old friends
Gig listings,
Someone has given me a name, and put me on a gig, don't know if I want to play yet,
2 Spirit people on train
A man and a woman.
I have an animal object with me.
Little carved bird, it is a spirit.
One of them had a little model sheep. He told me that he went everywhere with it, and it helped him in his life. He says to me,
"You can squeeze a building, but it is its function that makes it beautiful"
Here is a dream in note form.
Mum - lift
Going to go with alys, we get separated, can't get back in touch with her.
Trouserless, at a party
Meet robert dunseath,
So over joyed, we hug, and I cry a tear.
I have important work to do and people to meet,
Meet lots of old friends
Gig listings,
Someone has given me a name, and put me on a gig, don't know if I want to play yet,
2 Spirit people on train
A man and a woman.
I have an animal object with me.
Little carved bird, it is a spirit.
One of them had a little model sheep. He told me that he went everywhere with it, and it helped him in his life. He says to me,
"You can squeeze a building, but it is its function that makes it beautiful"
gangsters
I am with the bees, and with joseph. I am curious how people from different cultures and backgrounds look after bees. I have been contacting Muslims who might be able to show me something about the Islamic faith.
I'm wandering past the botanics in sheffield, and one of the people I've contacted gets back to me. He first of all tells me that there is this event going on in his religion, and that I ought to go to it.
I'm near the synagoge in sheffield.
This Muslim chap phones me, the only one to get back to me from my messages, he is telling me how I can learn this stuff.
He says I need to go to this place.
I wander looking for this place described, only find this empty wearhouse, near the synagogue. Dad and James find me here. We look around.
I find a large room on the first floor full of plants growing. They are all kales and mustard leaf plants. I know this must be Richards growing space, I can tell by the plants, and the way they are growing and the feel of the place.
I am going to show dad and James this, but they have to go off, so I am now left on my own, as I want to stay to explore.
They go, and no sooner have they gone, when I hear new voices in the main hall entrance to the building, and the main lights to the building are switched on.
"Oh no". Think, "I've left my bike unlocked in the hall, it will get stolen!"
The voices start shouting and yelling when they see my bike, not because they want to steal it, but because its a sign that I am in the building.
I hear rushing of footsteps up the stairs, they are coming to get me! I am terrified. I feel this must be some secret gangster group or something, and I've broken into there building.
There is only one thing to do, jump down to the ground floor from this balcony. I can see a foam mattress that I can aim for. Its that or nothing. They will kill me if they catch me, I know. I must take this risk, "after all," I think to myself " it may all turn out to be a dream anyway,"
I jump....
I'm wandering past the botanics in sheffield, and one of the people I've contacted gets back to me. He first of all tells me that there is this event going on in his religion, and that I ought to go to it.
I'm near the synagoge in sheffield.
This Muslim chap phones me, the only one to get back to me from my messages, he is telling me how I can learn this stuff.
He says I need to go to this place.
I wander looking for this place described, only find this empty wearhouse, near the synagogue. Dad and James find me here. We look around.
I find a large room on the first floor full of plants growing. They are all kales and mustard leaf plants. I know this must be Richards growing space, I can tell by the plants, and the way they are growing and the feel of the place.
I am going to show dad and James this, but they have to go off, so I am now left on my own, as I want to stay to explore.
They go, and no sooner have they gone, when I hear new voices in the main hall entrance to the building, and the main lights to the building are switched on.
"Oh no". Think, "I've left my bike unlocked in the hall, it will get stolen!"
The voices start shouting and yelling when they see my bike, not because they want to steal it, but because its a sign that I am in the building.
I hear rushing of footsteps up the stairs, they are coming to get me! I am terrified. I feel this must be some secret gangster group or something, and I've broken into there building.
There is only one thing to do, jump down to the ground floor from this balcony. I can see a foam mattress that I can aim for. Its that or nothing. They will kill me if they catch me, I know. I must take this risk, "after all," I think to myself " it may all turn out to be a dream anyway,"
I jump....
Tuesday, 7 June 2011
bone marrow meal
I have a shadowy recollection of a room, with people, and lots happens, its ritual work, and I meet lots of important people, and I take off my white clothes and reveal a silver shirt, which shows who I am, but the dream is too distant for me to properly remember.. I am left with the feeling.
The first thing I clearly remember is meeting Carla, she is sat away from the main group of people, and is in a sharp mood. I have not see Carla like this before; its as if she could sting out at any moment, and really snap in her emotions.
I talk to her about this sting she has, and she knows its there.
Now I am in sheffield.
I go into a new shop in Crookes.
There are people buying roasted squash, and fresh vegetables, its a very beautiful combination between a shop and a restaurant.
I order some food off a giant squash, ( the squash has a lable on it for 180 pounds,) and I sit down at a table to eat food with people.
Firstly some kids come up to me, to see what I'm eating. I show them. It looks like a giant bone, which I scoop the squash out of. It tastes divine. In fact, I think I may be eating bone marrow, the squash is inside a giant bone with the bone marrow. It looks strange, but it is very tasty.
There are some people sat around the table with me. They are the Crookes transition group. They don't know who I am but I have a good idea of who they are. Its interesting listening in on there conversation. One of them says something about toilet paper, and what an unnecessary thing it is.
"Its not that bad" I say, "there are worse things about"
Oh how Little they know about me, I think....
"Take calamus root, for example" I say, in a joking way..."now that's bad!"
I proceed to make them a pot of calamus root tea. A few of them have left by the time I get back, but the others are still about.
We drink the tea, and eat some cake, which contrasts very sharply with the tea.
We chat into the evening. One of them asks if I am going to the pub for a drink. "I've got a drink here" I say.
Its all in all avery pleasant meeting with people.
The first thing I clearly remember is meeting Carla, she is sat away from the main group of people, and is in a sharp mood. I have not see Carla like this before; its as if she could sting out at any moment, and really snap in her emotions.
I talk to her about this sting she has, and she knows its there.
Now I am in sheffield.
I go into a new shop in Crookes.
There are people buying roasted squash, and fresh vegetables, its a very beautiful combination between a shop and a restaurant.
I order some food off a giant squash, ( the squash has a lable on it for 180 pounds,) and I sit down at a table to eat food with people.
Firstly some kids come up to me, to see what I'm eating. I show them. It looks like a giant bone, which I scoop the squash out of. It tastes divine. In fact, I think I may be eating bone marrow, the squash is inside a giant bone with the bone marrow. It looks strange, but it is very tasty.
There are some people sat around the table with me. They are the Crookes transition group. They don't know who I am but I have a good idea of who they are. Its interesting listening in on there conversation. One of them says something about toilet paper, and what an unnecessary thing it is.
"Its not that bad" I say, "there are worse things about"
Oh how Little they know about me, I think....
"Take calamus root, for example" I say, in a joking way..."now that's bad!"
I proceed to make them a pot of calamus root tea. A few of them have left by the time I get back, but the others are still about.
We drink the tea, and eat some cake, which contrasts very sharply with the tea.
We chat into the evening. One of them asks if I am going to the pub for a drink. "I've got a drink here" I say.
Its all in all avery pleasant meeting with people.
Sunday, 5 June 2011
footbal match
We have just finished our walk in nature, learning things about trees and plants, and Bendle now gets us all to stand in a line, because we are about to start a team game.
I have been holding off weeing for a long time, and now I'm really desperate, so I just find a spot near a bush to wee and start weeing. Everyone is now stood in the line, and they can all see me doing my wee. "This is how to take a wee in nature". They all find it amusing, and no-one takes offence.
Bendle divides us into two teams by dividing the strongest of the guys. He picks out me and Nathan, and a couple of the other really fast strong guys, anf then tells us to divide half of the rest between us fairly. I end up on the same side as Mat Lipscombe, and Andy Forbes.
We are going to play a game of football.
As soon as we've divided ourselves, the game starts, and Nathan, my rival, has got me in a body lock, like we are wrestling or something. Being slightly stronger than him, I am still able to move about, but greatly restricted. We run off play with the ball, Nathan still holding me. "Out of play" I shout, "play on", says Mr Boardman (who Bendle has become).
We play on....
I have been holding off weeing for a long time, and now I'm really desperate, so I just find a spot near a bush to wee and start weeing. Everyone is now stood in the line, and they can all see me doing my wee. "This is how to take a wee in nature". They all find it amusing, and no-one takes offence.
Bendle divides us into two teams by dividing the strongest of the guys. He picks out me and Nathan, and a couple of the other really fast strong guys, anf then tells us to divide half of the rest between us fairly. I end up on the same side as Mat Lipscombe, and Andy Forbes.
We are going to play a game of football.
As soon as we've divided ourselves, the game starts, and Nathan, my rival, has got me in a body lock, like we are wrestling or something. Being slightly stronger than him, I am still able to move about, but greatly restricted. We run off play with the ball, Nathan still holding me. "Out of play" I shout, "play on", says Mr Boardman (who Bendle has become).
We play on....
Saturday, 4 June 2011
Friends, gatherings and strange allotments
I'm in wellow.
Ruth and sara come to see me, and they go off to the shepherds hut, which surprises me, because I didn't think either of them had been here before. Ruth has seen me down here before, and then I remember, oh yes! She tells me that people are coming tomorrow! They are expecting me to run a course! "I can't do that", I say "I've not prepared!" She and sara say it will be fine.
Ruth has loads more confidence than I've ever seen before. It is quiet amazing how she has changed. I find this new Ruth even more attractive than I did before!
She shows sara the shepherds hut and we chat and hug. Now we are outside again and we talk more about what I can do tomorrow. I feel happy that I can show people about, all spontaneous and stuff....
And now we are in sheffield, its a party vibe; I'm just outside peace in the park,
I have been given this allotment space which is in a garage. it is one allotment which is a part of a site. It's such a strange allotment site, there are about 4 plots and they are all under cover and in a old narrow but long garage... Mine isn't just under cover, it is also in a loft like place, with a window at the top end. No one will know about this place, it is so secret and hidden - its the perfect place to grow da weed! I think about asking the police for information regarding cannabis, and its legal status, I want to know how many plants you can grow and still claim it to be personal use. I wonder if this is a dodgy thing to ask them!
I have to climb down a ladder to get back down, and sara and ruth are coming up to me, to see what I've found.
Elise comes running up to me too, we have a really big hug and spin around. She has a french friend with her too.
Elise looks very attractive, and I feel wrong for thinking this!
We are all so happy.... So so happy....
Ruth and sara come to see me, and they go off to the shepherds hut, which surprises me, because I didn't think either of them had been here before. Ruth has seen me down here before, and then I remember, oh yes! She tells me that people are coming tomorrow! They are expecting me to run a course! "I can't do that", I say "I've not prepared!" She and sara say it will be fine.
Ruth has loads more confidence than I've ever seen before. It is quiet amazing how she has changed. I find this new Ruth even more attractive than I did before!
She shows sara the shepherds hut and we chat and hug. Now we are outside again and we talk more about what I can do tomorrow. I feel happy that I can show people about, all spontaneous and stuff....
And now we are in sheffield, its a party vibe; I'm just outside peace in the park,
I have been given this allotment space which is in a garage. it is one allotment which is a part of a site. It's such a strange allotment site, there are about 4 plots and they are all under cover and in a old narrow but long garage... Mine isn't just under cover, it is also in a loft like place, with a window at the top end. No one will know about this place, it is so secret and hidden - its the perfect place to grow da weed! I think about asking the police for information regarding cannabis, and its legal status, I want to know how many plants you can grow and still claim it to be personal use. I wonder if this is a dodgy thing to ask them!
I have to climb down a ladder to get back down, and sara and ruth are coming up to me, to see what I've found.
Elise comes running up to me too, we have a really big hug and spin around. She has a french friend with her too.
Elise looks very attractive, and I feel wrong for thinking this!
We are all so happy.... So so happy....
Thursday, 2 June 2011
Art gallery Mbira
I am in Sheffield somewhere down by the industrial area.
I go inside an old building where a group of us have been making art work. We have a load of rooms where we have been painting the walls with beautiful murals - pictures of animals and people, with bright colours.
in one of the rooms i am standing, a group of people are in there, and we are planning what to do next with the sapce. We realise that we have created a permanent art gallery, and we just need to keep painting new pictures , and then people will come. We let people in for free.
We have some music playing, and i play some music as well. I play my Mbira. It is a magical noise. It transports me into the woods, and then i am walking with a group of people, and there are two lines of people. They are people who have come to learn about wild plants. I meet a magical wise man, and the occasion is an important one, he says that its not quite the right time to play the Mbira.. I get out an mbira that i have been given by the spirit world to call the people.... it has only got 3 keys to it, and it has got the name of God carved in the front, in symbolic form. When I play it, the wise man says that this is right, and the timing is perfect. I only play 3 keys, and everyone is called and comes to listen.
Then a crow caws in normal reality waking me up. I wake up it is 5 am in the morning, and im in the yurt in wellow. The crow that has woken me flies off somewhere.
I go inside an old building where a group of us have been making art work. We have a load of rooms where we have been painting the walls with beautiful murals - pictures of animals and people, with bright colours.
in one of the rooms i am standing, a group of people are in there, and we are planning what to do next with the sapce. We realise that we have created a permanent art gallery, and we just need to keep painting new pictures , and then people will come. We let people in for free.
We have some music playing, and i play some music as well. I play my Mbira. It is a magical noise. It transports me into the woods, and then i am walking with a group of people, and there are two lines of people. They are people who have come to learn about wild plants. I meet a magical wise man, and the occasion is an important one, he says that its not quite the right time to play the Mbira.. I get out an mbira that i have been given by the spirit world to call the people.... it has only got 3 keys to it, and it has got the name of God carved in the front, in symbolic form. When I play it, the wise man says that this is right, and the timing is perfect. I only play 3 keys, and everyone is called and comes to listen.
Then a crow caws in normal reality waking me up. I wake up it is 5 am in the morning, and im in the yurt in wellow. The crow that has woken me flies off somewhere.
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