rosa dream

I've been on a train, traveling to get somewhere.... Its very late at night, about 5 or 6 o'clock in the morning...

I'm passing Rosa's house, and I have something to drop off, so I call round to post it through the letter box, and to my surprise, I see Rosa is still up. She is sat on a sofa, doing some nitting or crochet or something. I wave through the window, and she, to her surprise, sees me.

I wave to her to let me come in, even though its sillily late/early.... She opens the door, and I give her a big hug, so big, that when I stop hugging, she is all off balance, and falls back onto the ground, banging her bum on the ground, landing right on that hard bone at the tip of the spine.

Oh no! I cry! "I'm so sorry!"

I know that must really hurt.. I fear it will put her out for a week, but she gets up, and says she is fine. We sit and chat for a while... I can't remember what we chat about, but its a great chat all the same..

Its so good to see her again!

I was at coed, and I meet Hannah... We go traveling, and now we are by the sea... I meet Simon, Anne-Marie, Jo and Jazmine, and we have a chat on the beach.

Now I'm back in somerset, and I have hired a van, but I dont know how to drive it. I think it will be easy, but when I try to break, I realise that i can't. The van is now rolling down the hill, and i end up tipping it over, while im driving, by turning very sharply.

I think I've broke the van, but its still ok, only a little more scrached. The van hire people come to help me, its ok they say. Then they offer me advice, and tell me what to do about all my sheffield missions. I am helped alot.

Im in the kitchen. Mum is tiling in the bath rooms, I see her work. It is a blue tile that she is using and it looks nice. Adrien is coming round, and we have made some food for her.

We are roasting squash!

stolen bike!

I'm with some friends in Sheffield, we are in some flats, and some people are following us around... Ive left my bike somewhere, when I go back it is taken... everything seems to be going wrong, its really difficult to cope... there are police following us.... hard to remember all the dream...

paralysed

I've just had some lovely dreams, and I'm now waking up, in the shepherds hut. I can see the sun shining and the birds are singing.

I'm awake now, and I want to get up, but have that sluggish "Can't get up" feel in my limbs, so I just remain lying there.

My vision is funny, its not what it usually is in the morning. For some reason my eyes are transfixed on one particular spot; I'm just staring, staring at the table, the candles, the books, and when I move my self, my vision is still the same picture.

What is wrong? I wonder to my self....

My head feels strange; my mind is doing one thing, while my body seems to be doing another. Am I paralysed? I keep trying to move, and to will my body to move, to get up, but there is no response. It feels like my nervous system has stopped working. I can't move, no matter how hard i try to will so with my mind. This experience is very similar to an experience you might get after smoking a fairly large amount of salvia divinorm. You just loose all grip on reality, the familiar, and the connection between your nervous system and your mind totally breaks down.


Well, in this state I discover something interesting... It seems to be one of two possibilities.... I notice that I can move, but my vision has stayed the same... the same table with candles and books, no change there.... but the feeling I am having is not one of being in my bed now, but of being outside of it... I can walk about, while my vision stays the same...

If it is not this happening, it could be just that my mind is creating an experience as if I were walking about... I get glimpses through the feeling of suddenly being outside, or of looking back at me in the bed.... Weather I am actually walking about or that my spirit has left my body, I can't tell. But there is definately an experience of two of me at the same time, one feelings based, the other vision based.


I feel that I have got this illness, that this stuckness in my vision is not right... I ought to be seeing things through my eyes, not this same picture of table, candles and books...

I get a sudden glimpse of myself, and I look very sick. I've got this crazy rash that has appeared overnight and it is covering all of the top of my face, and it is red and blotchy and spotty. My skin is dry and cracked.

I now panic. I try to call out for help. I try to text people to help, but I can't read the screen, i can only feel the phone in my hands. I try to text from the feel of what it feels like to text, but I really don't know how, i can't remember the positions of the letters well enough to do this.

I cry out for help. I most of all call to the earth to help me heal, to help me find medicine.

I manage to crawl out of hut; I have got just enough vision to get out.. I find myself at a spring... I hear the water bubbling into a plastic shape which is a part of a car, and acting as a water catcher, an I can see enough to see the water. I scoop my hands into the water and drink. It works; I can feel the water running down my throat, and I feel my strength returning. All this time I am aware that my vision, or whatever it is that is stuck is still in bed, in the same position that it was in when I woke up. Perhaps it is my spirit that has drunk at the spring....who knows?

I can hear Judith an dad talking, they are talking about going for a walk. Dad tells jude to come and get me to come for a walk too... I am still all messed up, despite the refreshing drink of spring water, and so I call out to jude and she comes over and I say "can't you see the red rash all around my face?"

"Not really" She says... She cant see whats wrong with me... I wonder if this is me or my spirit me...

Its crazy she can't see, when I saw it on me so clearly. I just wander my body back to my bed slowly, and think "I must find a doctor on my own!"....

After a bit of a rest, I set off on a journey to find a doctor who can help me...

coed dream

I'm at coed, and we are building a house together collectively.
Its a wooden timber frame structure and I'm helping out with it.


We get it up in a day.
This is the future of building, I know this for sure, and decide I must build one for myself one day.

I need to borrow some tools off Timo, and I help him in exchange.

I meet Hannah. She has been really struggling last weekend, feeling like being trapped by a spider. An echeart tolle book really helped her.

dark flies dream

Last night I had dark dreams..I dreamed I was in my bed and flies kept landing on me, and I kept swatting them away, and it went on for ages, and they kept coming, and I was surounded by loads of dead flies. There was a bad smell...

I woke up this morn, and my digestion was all messed up.... Its rare for me to get ill, so I take it as a sign that I'm not listening to my body at the moment.

musical baby genius

I call round at Conor and Alys's. They are struggling again with money, and alys is getting stressed by it...


Now I'm playing piano with the big band. I have been asked to babysit this autistic blind kid, who is only 2 years old. He is something of a musical genius, so I've sat him with me at the piano as the big band starts up.

The first piece has quite a lot of scat singing, and baby sings out in response to the various singers. Its unbelievable how much ability this kid has. He then starts playing piano melodies like a professional musician, and everyone is amazed. He also talks to me like a mature grown up at 2!

He talks about growing up.. He is really scared about growing up.... Due to a rare genetic condition he has, he has matured and aged a lot sooner than all other two year olds. He will likely die younger than the other people his age, and he will likely not fit I at all at school. He has already started growing a beard, and reaching sexual maturity at 2! Here is a kid who is way off the scale of normal...

animals

I'm taking a group of people on a wild food walk. There are so many people that we have to split into 3 groups. For some reason, my group are a bit later, I'm with the new comers, and we go out later than the others, with the intention to catch up.

I find a nice spot to sit to start the walk. I want to get the group to talk to the plants, so I say, "this exercise is called The Tree Speaks", and one guy in the group, John Biggins the mathemation, gets it immediately, and says "so we talk to the tree and the tree tells us what it can do" "exactly" I say.

Just as I get up from my seat a big bumbling, baby cow comes gambling along through the woods. Its the most friendly of creatures, and bounces right over to me, practically knocking me over in the process. This cow doesn't look much like a cow, but more like the costume cows you see in amateur theatre productions, where 2 people are dressed up, one holding the waist of the other. There is an even littler cow with this bumbling cow, who is following the older cow. The cow seems to be telling me that this is not the right exercise to do right now, that the group won't be ready for it.

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I'm at the sacred trust, and we are doing work on the land. I see a fox and follow the fox to learn more of its behaviours. Its surprisingly easy following fox, and I am amazed at the ease with which fox moves across the landscape. The fox is very tame and comes right up to a group of us are sitting. I notice badger is with us also, and fox and badger have some silent communication between them, which we can't hear.

Now fox runs off again and I get up and follow fox along the river bank. I come to a green house, within which I see some baby fruit trees that are struggling. We need to get them some more water. I do a back bend in the greenhouse with the support of a step.

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I'm now with a group
of us, discussing some important point. One of the women is telling us about her fiery drive for love.

wolf dream

We are up in the mountains, by a frozen lake. I push a big ice statue out across the ice, and watch it slide and skid its way into the middle of the lake.

Rosa is here and I'm worried she will get too cold as she is only wearing a dressing gown. She says she is fine.

There is a big waterfall at the end of the lake that has not frozen. Mum is walking close to the waterfall and she says to follow her. There are dogs with us, and the dogs are leading us to where we will find food.

We walk a short way through a forest and a wolf appears. The dogs at first bark, but then are quiet. This wolf is not trying to threaten us, but is just curious. The light in the wolf's eyes is wise.

dogs, fields and music for hospitals

I'm in the park, with friends. The dogs have wandered off. We call them back, and one of them starts howling like a wolf, which sets off all the others. We are running together now, through beautiful woodland, dogs barking and howling all the way back, in a big pack.

I go to the fields, the steep north facing slopes have all been ploughed up and down the slope, contrary to how I would instinctively plough. Seeds have been sown in all of the drills, and they are coming up through the weeds in the thousands. Beetroots, carrots, parsnips, salads, so many as far as the eye can see. I meet someone from the allotments, and tell her how amazing this is.
She says its not as amazing as it used to be, I know what she means somehow, as there are a lot of weeds growing in between.

I see the plant Hearts Ease, I pick some, saying,
"just look at how beautiful this flower is"

She agrees and points out some other beautiful flowers. We wander to the top of the hill together.

I'm now revisiting Hospital. I was living there for a long time, and now I have to go back to find where I was once living.

I wander into the wrong room, I've lost all sense of direction and feel quite drunk. I see a friend, who sees that I don't know where I'm going and she tries to give me directions. I vaguely follow, but its not working, and I wander into a ward, which is mostly empty, but there is a nurse treating a girl in a bed. The girl looks a bit like a friend of mine, but she is a lot over weight, and has nervous system damage and can't move very well. Also her skin has a lot of spots. For some reason, I am overjoyed that I have found her, and I start singing a song. When I start singing, a little diamond spiral appears above one of the medicine tables in the ward, and I go over to it. Its alive.

The hospital staff now find me and take me out of the ward, but the work has been done. I get lost again on my escorted walk out of the hospital- more work to do. I see my friend conor. He is here, and we need to play some music together. We have to run and hide from the staff who will try to take us out of the hospital.

a mix of themes

Sacred place in attic

Lit a fire, bees angry, get attacked.

With james,

Shakespeare lies up in the attic too. Its been blocked cos some people didn't was us to meet Shakespeare.

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Conor, we run up stairs to go to sleep, grafting knives on the bed, lots of, had to clear them out of way.

With maria and robert , have a wee outside, robert sees,
Garden is full of things growing,
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Just smoking 6 cigarettes could damage your health,

With simon, and group, we ready for journey,
At the beginning..

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Rosa change - chating about her writing, she was doing some writing that referenced lots..
About mythological creatures,


Was doing a seed swap in sheffield, or leeds, the tables get turned over while I'm out of the room, disruptive behavour..

Its like its being held in a student place,

Part of a play, to music by Verdi, opera style,

fools gold

I'm in wellow, and james invites me to an event, up over the hills, a short walk away.
I wonder weather I want to go, and then, almost without choosing, I'm walking over the hills with james. He gives me this spongy thing as says eat it, as that's what he is doing. Its a special drug which needs to be eaten by those who come to this event. I already have my doubts as to what to do, but, since I have come so far, I go with it anyway.

We wander through some fields and come to a path at the edge of a wood. The path becomes a small road, and goes through a tunnel. Water runs in the tunnel, in a stream beside the road.

We have come through the tunnel now into a clearing with a group of people. James seems to disappear, and the drug that I have eaten really gets to work. I enter into a different reality.

I'm at a fairground. There's gnomes and fairy's all over the place, running stalls, and I get attracted by one, and it pulls me in.

I pull the lever of this game,
This game is a trick. All too late, I realise I've been tricked. I am teleported to a new reality, where I don't know my way back. My phone has had all its contacts erased. Uncle matthew is with me, strangely enough, and this comforts me.

My phone simply won't work, everything has been erased. There are a whole load of windows in front of me, and different shapes and numbers are appearing before my eyes.

I pick one of the windows, and now the numbers come back onto my phone. I ring wellow, and I speak to james, and tell him to help me get out of here. He tells me directions. I have to go back through the tunnel, but this time I have to swim as the water has risen dramatically.

I swim through the tunnel, and cross the fields, and get back to normal reality in wellow. I check my phone. Its not working again! Oh no! I thought I'd woken up out of that dream!

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The Tremellens bees swarmed, you caught them, but then they disappeared again... We found them up on a hill just near the spring, an open site, where the winds came across.

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What can you use fools gold for"? Someone asks me...

Well, I say, "just ask it"
So we ask, and I get feeling that its inert and non conductive, and can be used for protecting things.

egyptian food growing and Jesus love

Had dream about growing plants, met with darrel and richard, and simon, we were being shown how the egyptians grew there food, in little troughs, with planks.

Also dreamed I met joe, rosas boyfriend with rosa. We went to a gig, everyone was wearing Jesus t shirts, there was big feeling of love everywhere, love everywhere in the air, on peoples faces, I could feel the love in the gathering, and in the place. This love was what Jesus was all about.

a mix- romance, prey predator, bows and arrows

I'm down south.

On the a course, I am eating food, and a disabled person near me tells me she likes me and asks how old I am. I say 26, and probably blush, as everyone around can hear. After eating we listen to some really amazing music about jesus, its not Christian rock or anything, its about jesus from a critical thinking perspective.

I'm now going to bed, but before bed I hang out with my friend charly. The disabled girl is with me again, and this time she is looking a lot more attractive, and I think, maybe it could work.. No harm in trying.

Charly shows me some really beautiful objects that she has, and we tell bed time stories.

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On the land we find a caged area with a killer squirrel. This crazed creature has been running around eating all the little mice and small creatures, and has grown so savage and huge, con sequentially. We release a giant buzzard or some bird of prey, not sure which. And this giant bird swoops down and pins the giant squirrel. It rips it open and starts to feed on the kill. I come in and assist the bird, by chopping off the tail and the legs. Its a savage bloody scene, but somehow feels right.

I'm with trackways, and we are practising with plastic bow and arrows and boomerangs.

We are simply seeing how far and straight we can shoot. I have to hold the bow so that others can pull back on the string. One kid shoots much further and straighter than the others, and it was due to his prayer, and that he stood straight behind me, lined up with my body.

a mix of themes- allotments and sexual behaviour,

I meet richard, we chat,I realise that he is risking all for his plants, he loves them very much.

I bump into him on his allotment in the corner., I'm surprised to see him. He is surprised to see me too. He is pushing a wheel barrow down the hill, with planks on and other stuff. He has cleared the fruit area for community share, and is letting people come and use the space. He has also built some new raised beds that are very thin, this is not like him to do this.

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I'm at the top of crosspool, travelling across the city, I'm walking.

I come to sharrow lane orchard house. Its an important spot. I meet the family. The mother, the son who is about 14, the daughter who is about 11 and the baby who is about 3.

The son is a very touchy feely type, always expressing himself through touch. He hugs me very strongly and sits close. He grabs his sister and feels her up through her clothes; her breasts and her vagina. She resists, and pretends that she doesn't like it, but really she does. She knows that he has problems with self control, and forgives him for his behaviour. She is a lot more mature than he is, despite being 2 years younger. Her breasts are already fully formed, and she could easily be mistaken for an 18 year old.

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I'm now with rosa, she is baking bread. I am doing something with the bees.

militarry coverup

There has been some militarry coverup opperation.,

Lots of shops across town are closed, but I manage to sneek into then, find big boxes that look like wepons, or something military.

Something really terrible is going to happen, I know, most people don't.


' Hitler never learnt what the jews had to teach him'
I say to a group of friends.


The police find me,

echarte tolle

Meet echarte tolle, we are going for a walk as a group. I'm with the clan, we have a choise who we go with.

Paradox is there too.

I'm with the group who choose to go for a walk. I find a meditation spot- a bench my a river.