solstice dream

Chapter 1

A bike spring has been taken, stolen from this kid, and now he can't
ride his bike. We need to get it back to this kid, as he needs it to
ride his bike, but before I can do this I needed permission of some
important church person, as this spring is in the church, but instead
I ended up just taking it, now the sleeping church dragon had been
woken.

It had been woken because I had I took it out of the church, and he
was some kind of guardian of this spring the kid needed, as it gave
him his power. The dragon had stolen it a long time ago, and now he
knew it was missing and he was seeking for the one who took it.

I was hiding in case I was found, as this is a dangerous dragon. I was
afraid, and scared that something would reveal me as the one who woke
the church dragon.

I was told by mike turner, my god father, what to do to make my self
safe. He said it should be ok.
I was worried that the dragon could see me where ever I was, could see
through walls and such like, and find me.

It felt like a very dangerous energy that had been awakened. Somehow
it was tied in with the fate of this girl.
We now have to do a special magic as part of returning this spring to him.

To do this magic, we need his permission to do it, as it involved
using magic to get this spring back from the dragon.

He was scared, like we, as we knew now the reason for some of the
awful things that had happened, as a consequence of this theft. We had told him, as he needed to know, and we had cried together, holding him in my arms. Now he had agreed he agreed, and we prepare for our special magic.

We are going to get the spring back to the boy, and mend the boys
bicycle, and so restore peace and harmony in the land.

Chapter 2

For this special magic spell I wanted a jesus moment, as I felt it
was what was needed.

My friend Christopher mason from st Thomas Church turns up when I
call him. He had been hiding in the bushes on Crooksmoor rd, and now
he is ready, dressed in full Jesus outfit. It is a true st Thomas
church moment - Jesus Christ super star at its best.

The People are watching, and its all gona be ok.

city food growing

I am in this house in walkley, not far from rosa's, busy doing
something, I think I am playing piano, or drawing or reading, and
The kid from next door
Keeps knocking on the door and telling me to come round. I am not sure
why he wants me to come so much, but he tells me that they are making
a big fire and they need help. I agree to help them. It has been
raining such a lot,
So I tell him to find dry wood in the cellar.

I go visit them, via our back garden space, as the gardens are all
connected. I notice that they have done some very impressive things
with the garden. I wander through it. They have a large back garden,
which includes lots of vegetable space, plus a number of tall sycamore
trees in a line, a patch of grass, a patio, and more. It looks like
they have taken on the neighbors back garden too. I am very impressed,
so I go to knock on their back door to show my appreciation.

The mother of the child is cooking in the large kitchen, and there is
a quirky old piano in the kitchen too. It feels a very open style
house.

She tells me Adam and liz have moved house to this new space, they are
renting out cundy street.
I talk to her about growing and such like. The house is the second
from the end of the road, next to T junction.

christmas and the flood

Its christmas time, and we are all getting ready with presents. I have
to go and hide some stuff that I don't want my parents to see... Now
we are ready, and I am listening to some songs on youtube, and my
family are with me. There is this one particular song I really wanted
to play them by this female singer, it was all about this emotional
thing. We are all finding things to show one another. I end finding
this nature documentary program.
We watch it, it is really exciting. These guys have killed cheetahs
and are wading through this swamp with the skins and heads of them on
there back, like a living cheetah moving on water. It looks scary.

I have been drawn into the film and now I'm with these guys. We come
across some huge water buffalo... There has been a flood and some of
them got washed away... Also there are some broken village huts up
ahead, with a little group of people stood outside. We go and join
them to help them get their feet back on the ground after this
devastation.

There is this mother and 3 girls, one in her teens, the other
two slightly younger. Since they have had lots of their stuff swept away,
they are trying to salvage what they can. The eldest of the girls
looks at me and realises that I find her attractive. She has got
nicely formed breasts and is topless.
I try to look away, as I don't want to get distracted from helping them.

Now the younger 2 are having a conversation. One of them is soaking
wet, and cold so they strike a deal to swap clothes, the other one
being the warmer and drier of the two. As they remove their clothes, I
can't help myself but look at their naked bodys, and find them
atractive. Yet, I am naked too, and their mother is here, and I must
use all my will power to not show my lust, and to fight off sexual
urges. After all, these girls are just kids.

Now we have to do a dance, and all of a sudden it is a house party,
and I meet an old house mate who is attracted to me. We are dancing to
some electronic beat music, and having a great time. We chat and catch
up with one another. The mother and these girls are all here, dancing
too, this time fully dressed and happy.
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man in the snow

Man in the snow.

Falling through the snow, dangerous, many miles of snow, eventually I see familiar ground, know I need to stop. Somehow manage to survive. See john G and meet him by a lampost. I'm able to comunicate psyicallying with him. We arrived together after the snow journey, through the mountais. This is where iwas heading.

John simeon - prove his theorys right and also wrong. Both papers.
Wooden knife make, special steel wood. Dad.

note form dream

House stuck from my parents, knew people

Caren dave going to move, idea of selling house, all windows were boarded up.

At the course.
Listening to allot music.
I wanted tobe o own, had to go down these stairs all in a line. My music accomanied me on hedphones.

Joe talking about eash peach pear plum. Leanna remembered it, I struggles.

More at course.

Asking me if I was ok,
Some people next door,

dream in note form

Meet goddess
Dressing gown


Dad - arrested - stopped by police, beers in front - I say checked on his card. Dilemma he in.

Cornwall, beach, AM, on boats on river. She tells me about japanese nudist community, go for walk, she did.

Joe brother - at community space. Like coed, lots of people around. We playing games. I Talking about smoking, I give away smoke stuff. To people they really appreciate.

the secret bad guy

There was this bad guy. He was a boss, and wanted to be Lord of All.

He was very manipulative, and was trying to make us all his slaves. And me and my friends had discovered this, we knew the secret, and so we were trying to find ways to not become slaves to this guy.

There was this big field. And we were looking for somewhere to smoke some weed.

And this bad guy had the power to control the weather, and I had managed to sneak inside his hidden rooms inside his giant mansion. And I was meant to do something when I was in there, I had to get his special files, and destroy them and so destroy his power.

It was the secret files on his computer system that gave him all his power.

the Spirals on the Hill

I'm walking with daniele through the park.
We journey down a gorge, with steep sides. The sides get steeper as we walk.

We stop at place where there was once a party. We find out that it was someone we know.

As we wander over the party space, we notice a spiral pattern on the hill. Its three S shaped patterns, 1 large central S and 2 smaller S shapes above and below.

We notice that there are old orchards around this area. We are near Bath. We notice that the old orchards have been vandalized.

People are planting little baby trees as hedging, which spiral around the spiral pattern on the ground. The hedging is quite small and vulnerable.



Rich clare is showing my dad and this older council guy round his growing spaces.

I'm in a tent with a couple of friends. We have found a giant sweet chestnut, which we are storing in a paper bag. Its the size of a rugby ball.

friendships and sweating

I'm with Adriano. Our friendship has grown again. This time we are back in his old house looking at the spaces between the rooms. We share some smoke, and chat to his brother Guiseppe. We also have a look round the old sweetshop next door.

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I'm now with my brother Joe, and we are taking part in this cleansing ceremony. It involves lots of sauna style sweating. About 4 days of constant sweating, with breaks in between. It is very intense, and I take longer breaks in between, to recover from all the heat.

the light and the dark, wild food.

I've come up to the housing estate to find some friends who I've not seen in a while. The kids see me coming, and start chasing me; its a game we have been playing each time I come up. I resist playing as I have work to do, but then my own inner child gets the better of me, and I'm chasing them round, trying to be as scary as I can!

The light is going, its getting dark, and I imagine their parents will be out to look for them soon, but a strange thing is afoot.

Its November round the back of the flats, but round the front, on the sunny side, its May. The adults are all out celebrating May day, the start of summer, with games of football and cricket and such like.
They are not worried about their children because to them it is broad day light.

I bump into one of my friends, and he says,

"Steve, have you come to do a wild food walk? Everyone is interested"

At first I was resistant, as I thought it was November, but as it also seems to be May, then I decide yes.

"Great!" My friend says, "let's get everyone together!"

We rally round the flats and send texts to everyone. I want Michel to come on it, as I know he is interested, but his phone is not working. He lives at number 70 but, as I've experienced before, its not so easy finding number 70! It is hidden somewhere unusual...

Everyone waits patently as we look for Michel's flat.

feasting, and biodynamic horn

We are sitting down having a family meal, and Dad is encouraging me to eat more.

"Just try these tasty cheeses!" He urges, and "why don't you try some of this meat?"

He thinks I'm starving my self...

"You need to put on a bit of weight; look at you! You're so thin!"

He has a point, I am not over weight, that's for sure, and the foods in front of me look very tasty indeed.

"Just remember St Patrick" he says, "he looked after cows, and had a special cow horn like this one" . He shows me the cow horn, which can be played like a trumpet.

"Wow, I really want one of those!" I say. Perhaps I can make special biodynamic preparations using this cow horn....

fallen baby

I'm in the care of this baby. My mum has been looking after him, and now she passes him to me to look after.

"Just keep an eye on him" she says.

This baby crawls along, and seems pretty indestructible, as he seems to flex and bounce off nearly everything he does, as babies do. The stairs are no chalenge, he crawls over them. The sofas, the furniture, he seems, as such a young age to have mastery of.

All of a sudden this baby does a flip forward, and concertinas himself; he's all squashed up, and his folds of skin are bulging out to lessen the fall. I straighten him out, but now he's not breathing. I panic! I try to get breath into him, the first aid method. It doesn't work. I run with him, starting to go blue, to find my mum. I find her...

"Yes, he's quite prone to doing that", mum says casually. She holds his body in a special position and start resusitating him. Thank god I've got Mum around!

Stolen bike

I'm trying to get to my friends house in pitsmoor in sheffield. I keep
taking the wrong turns, thinking its higher up the hill than it really
is... On the third time I go wrong, I get off my bike, and walk back
to the turning I had just passed to check if it was the right one. Why
I got off my bike I don't know, but I walked passed three lads who saw
that I had left my bike up against the wall, and they started running
to nick it. I ran back to beat them to it, but it was no use. Its hard
to run sometimes in dreams..

Abandonment

Abandonment

Traveling on my bike through Bath, going to meet my parents there.
When I meet them, they are with AM and her family. I am so excited to
see them, that I give her and JA a massive hug before anyone else. I
can't believe they are really here. Its the nicest surprise in the world.

We go to a place where we will eat lunch, and then the plan is to go
to the cinema in the afternoon to watch a film. I'm really surprised
to see JE at the meal. I have a long chat to her about things, about
what she's been up to and such like.

While I'm eating my lunch, I keep thinking about JA, and glance over
to her, to remind myself how beautiful she is. And all of a sudden I
look up, and everyone has gone. They have left me to finish my lunch
on my own.

I get up and go to look for them, though I've no idea which way they
have gone. I must find them, especially, because I must see JA again,
I love her so much.

I find my mum in a shop and ask her where they have gone.

"They've gone to see the film they were planning"

"I want to see that! Why did no one tell me they were going?!"

"They didn't know you wanted to see it, and you were still eating"

I am really upset and angry.

"Tell me where the cinema is and ill go there now,"

"It will have already started", mum says.

"I can still get in though, can't I?" I say hopefully. I'm not really
bothered about seeing the film really, I just must see JA again. But
its easier to say to my mum that I really want to see the film, than
to explain my love I feel for JA...

A mix of dreams

The house,
I'd left my recording device out side, someone rescues it for me.

Ornamental - flowers
Very neat n tidy, I had got mud over the mat very badly. I had to climb round the side of the house on the wall.

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i meet Babs in an upstairs room. She is lying on her back, looking at the stars through the sky light window, She says that she cant imagine what it would be like to not be able to do this, to look at the stars. Its her favourite thing in the world.

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Rosa has taken up a online geography degree, a course that I was doing, so we
could compare notes, she was getting a lot more writing done than me, which i was a bit jealous of.

Shed written some thing as a critique of my own writings that I was
dead keen on getting my hands on.

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Jude had taken up gardening, had lots of things growing in pots down
the side of the house. She loves it.

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Oscar had caught a big rat that we didn't want him to catch. It
worried us, as we kept taking it off him, and then he'd pounce right
back on. I had to take Oscar and bash him on the ground each time he
tried to jump on Ratty, just so that it would knock some discipline
into him. He needed to learn what he can catch and what he can't. This
ratty holds lots of important info, and is a special friend of ours.

weird Fish

I'm traveling through a big building, and there are people who are living in different rooms in the building. Its like a big communal house. I meet up with conor, and we meet Rupert, and then there is a fire alarm.

Everyone has to get out of the building, but rupert is not able to get out because he is too ill, because of his ME.

Maria is here, and she is worried about rupert, and she thinks that Conor doesn't understand how bad ME is, and she thinks that Rupert needs more attention, yet conor argues with maria and says he does understand.

When we go outside of the house we see lots of people dancing, and we meet KRS-one. He is doing a new dance form that has just been invented. Its a bit like breakdancing but cooler! Its like you hold a pose, a bit like street art performance, and you had to hold it for a minute, and then hold another pose, and move subtly during each pose. He was able to shapeshift his body to suit the pose as well. It was the coolest way of dancing. I tried to do some, but it was not as cool as KRS one. Lots of people turned up and started dancing in this new way, in the street, by holding poses.

It was a very individualistic style of dancing, and music is playing at a pavilion in town, its a sunny day, and I see one lady who is on ice skates spinning round really fast, and she looks at me very intensely.

Conor has had a baby called Leo, after the sun sign Leo, and he is worried that the baby has ME.

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I'm at a festival and I'm wandering around looking at all the different stalls and the people at the festival, and each of the stalls you have to score points, its like a competition to see who can score the most points. There's games like scoring a goal and knocking off a coconut.

I don't really get involved that much. I see a Mystic meg stall and one of Jude's challenges is that she has to see mystic meg while naked, and there's a tree stall which turned you upsidedown but you had to be naked to go on it. And there's this old woman who can see right through you. I see Ruth, and we catch one another's eye.

Now I'm down by the harbor, and I meet someone who is down in the sands who is depressed, and he's either going to kill himself or kill someone else, he has gone a bit insane. And I say, let's see if we can catch a Fish! So, he throws a fork into the sea, and spears a fish, just like that! We go down into the water to collect it, and I think That was fun! And then he threatened to kill me with the sharp tool that he had, so I had to make sure that there was lots of fish to catch, so that he didn't kill me, so I turned around to look for more fish to catch, and I see lots of unusual sea creatures that I don't know if you can eat.

I collect up the most unusual ones, and I meet a sea food expert an he has these wellies on to stop him getting wet, and were looking at these unusual sea creatures, a really flat one, and he showing me a virus on it, which. You have to scrape off with your finger, then its fine. And he shows me how to do this. Its called Sea Bass.

And there's this squid one which has a round head and octopus like tentacles coming off it, and then we see the strangest one, it is like a floating flying sourser shape , looking like a mini yurt, about 1 ft across, floating on the water, and flashing little lights, and it has bright illumonous tentacles that spread out aout 2 meters on the ocean waves, and it has these other bright white lights that move up and down like tentacles,

and I watch these creatures bobbing about floating on the waves, making this incredible light display, as impressive as the northern lights, and I have a moment where I think this is the most beautiful thing in the world, and I can see church spires in the back ground, and then I decide I want to come down here to live, and I am convinced. Lost in the beauty of it all.


And at that point I am back in the festival, I get in a fight with a meat producer because I'm hanging out close to a vegetarian stall, and I'm getting attacked by this person, he is hitting me on the head with giant legs of lamb. And I get hit by a flying lump of frozen meat.

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I'm at this jazz gig, and we are all sat in chairs like cinema chairs, and we are watching john coltrain and miles davis, its amazing. But as the evening progresses the acts get worse and worse.

My dad is sat to the left of me and mike turner is sat to the right, and we are making comments on the acts, luke comments on one of the acts, it was someone trying to be very showy, a singer painted up, with a fake mustache, and she is giving a really fake performance, and I say to luke that my dad won't like this act.

Flying experiments

I'm with anne marie, joe and Jasmine. Jasmine is looking through a magazine trying to find a job. She spots a job that appeals to her, its all about film. She has found a love for acting and theatre, and performance.

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I'm now with my family and a few friends. We are down a little cave, which is a dead end. We are sheltering here. Some enemy is trying to find us. He finds us, and we have to hide in the cave and fight him off, with weapons. His weapons are more effective than ours, he is throwing grenades into the cave. I keep throwing them back out, and james says that's not the right thing to do, but I say what else can we do?

He has machine guns, and is firing at us. Some of us get killed. There is a crack like a trench to our right, into the hillside, and we chuck the grenades that he is throwing at us down there.

Some of us escape from the enemy, because we have learnt how to fly a bit. It involves jumping into the air and flapping your arms as fast as you can. I am quite good at it, but not as good as Jude, she has been practicing it since she was a kid, and is now very experienced with it.

The challenge is to learn how to go in a straight line when flying, its very easy to go round in circles, but that doesn't get you very far.

Mike turner is curious about our flying experiments... We are now in a PE hall and we are demonstrating the flying techniques we have learnt. I need to teach Joe how to do some flying, because he really struggled to get away from the enemy.

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I'm ouside, I can see a dirt track in front of me, and I see St Maximillian on the track, he is helping the poor and sick people. He has a look of compassion in his eyes. He is not afraid of the enemy, and does not need to fly because he is not afraid.

Church and the kid from the riots

I'm with my family and we are getting ready to go to church. I haven't been for ages, so I get lots of stuff together to take with me, as I want to feel at home when I get there.

I take with me pictures to hang on the wall, a basket of toys and things, a large mirror to look at my self in, and a very large fiberglass spinning top on a stand, about the size of a basket ball, but bigger. It is all shiny and it is a magic object, but I don't know it yet.

When we get to church, we are late. As usual, we sit at the front, and in full view of every one sitting behind us, I get out all my things, and set them up around me, hanging the pictures on the wall next to the large mirror, and arranging all my toys and stuff around me on the bench. I plan on having a good time at church!

Mum is shocked at me, "why have you brought all this stuff, you never used to be like this, look at all the mess and distraction its causing".

I know what she means, all my stuff is distracting people from the alter at the front of the church. The magic fiberglass spinning top is the most distracting, so dad decides to put it on the corner of the alter so as to bring peoples attention back to the mass.

He places the spinning top in a special dish, and it starts to spin. At first its quite a gentle spin, but then it starts to get faster and faster, and as it does, it changes shape, circular to oval, and back again, in a watery like motion, and changing into many different colours, reds, purples, blues, pinks, yellows, like a marbling effect, with inks.

It is totally hypnotizing, and it has caught a few peoples attention. As it spins faster it starts to sway from side to side, moving around in its dish, and soon, I think it will fall out onto the alter or the floor.

It does fall out, and when it does, everyone is watching it. Dad jumps up to pick it up off the floor, and mum tells him to leave it, as him picking it up will be an even bigger distraction than the fact that it is now spinning around in the isle.

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I'm with james and we are walking through the streets of london. Down by the docks we meet a young kid who has just got out of prison. He was one of the kids from the recent riots. He is an abandoned kid.

He is bored, and to keep away the boredom he has been playing games down at the docks, with other kids, making games up around the waterside. There is this one game that is a slide down a slippery walkway into the water, yet at the bottom is a wooden board to stop you falling to deep into the water. Your feet hit the water, then stop on the board making a splash which hits you back in the face.

He tells me to give it a go, which I do, and it is quite fun, but I can see that this doesn't really do it for him. Now he tells us that he is an expert at breaking into buildings and understanding police behavior. He tells us to follow him round the back of some shops, which we do. The back door to one of the shops in unlocked, and he knocks. There is no one in the shop so he opens the door and walks in. He shows us round inside this shop, it is an antique shop with lots of unusual bits and bobs, and then he shows us how to hide from the police. He sets off the alarm system on purpose, and then shows us a hiding place hidden in the walls so that when the police turn up they cannot find us. This is what he really likes to do.

Uma the Tiger

I'm with a friend or two, and I'm asking them about the Italian king and queen, "what are they up to?", I ask.
I am told that they are over in Japan, trying to rob and steal as much stuff as they can, and earn as much as they can, cashing in on the back of the floods and earth quakes that have recently affected Japan. There seems to be no mercy in what they are doing.

I'm now at Plants for a future, and I am with Anne-marie and Alys. We are watching a video, its all about Uma the tiger, a tiger that was, until recently, living at Plants for a future, and has since been away, somewhere tropical.

Uma is quite a unique tiger; orphaned at birth, she was brought up on only raw milk and steamed broccoli.
Once Uma tried to catch a golden eagle on site, but she didn't have the speed needed. Domestication had played its part, and what is more, is that Uma always insisted on wearing trainers on her paws; despite the fact that they slowed her down, she loved the tracks that they made in the sand.

We only just missed meeting Uma, and she will be back again at some point.

Shiro Dream

I'm with daniele, david and a few others from sheffield,


We are looking for shiro houses, as a number of new properties have come to our attention. And we are looking to land again.

We see a number of places that could be used, one in particular- it has a field next to it, loads of land but its really quite small, inside,

I know instinctively, that this place won't work, it is too isolated.

I am surprised at how many properties there are around the east and south of sheffield that have land surrounding them. People are forming a community based on the land out here, but it will take along time to join it all together. There is so much space, each house has at least a field each.

I drive down a long hill, there are houses dotted in fields , spread out, space between, colourful are the houses. I drive past a grave yard, right by the river, the river don. We drive back prince of wales rd. Saskia drives us, as its too dangerous for me to drive.

New wave

Me and my family have been visiting a church in Italy.

It was a very old catholic church that still kept up all the old songs and prayers in latin. There were very old sculptures and paintings in the building, and the caretaker, an old woman, was showing us round.

I wander off to see some bits of the church that are deep underground, and somehow or other, I get separated from my family and can't find them anywhere. I find the old woman and ask her.

"Language is an interesting thing, is it not?" She seems to be saying, in a irish accent,

We are stood at the doors of the church, which has these interesting holes in for looking out of.

"I have learnt all the languages from working in this place" she continues, "I can translate all the prayers, and I cannot help but cry in adoration for the mysteries".

She is clearly a very devote catholic, and has been working for the church all her life.

I ask her where my family have gone, and she tells me that they have got on a bus. This means they are heading back to the airport to get the plane. I must catch them up.

She shows me the bus to catch, which incidentally, has the same holes through it, as the doors of the church have, there is a significance to this she tells me, but I can't remember what that was.

I get on a bus to take me to the airport, but for some reason, it doesn't find its way there, and now I am lost in a big transport interchange system, and it seems there are loads of traffic jams, slowing everything up.

I ask around for help, and show an assistant my plane ticket. We look at the time,

"The plane leaves at 1130" he says,

"This gives me plenty of time" I say,

"Not really, it will take you quite a while to get there, leave at least an hour to get there, and then half an hour to get through the airport."

He's right, I need to get moving.

He points me in the direction of a lift which will take me to another level, and from there I can get the right bus.

I get on the lift. It is huge, big enough for cars to fit in. It takes me up, and now I am in another lift with lots of people.

There is a young lady talking to everyone on the lift, answering peoples questions.

The questions are all about sex, and the young lady is something of an authority on the subject. In fact she is an initiate in this new wave of sex culture that has begun in italy, which has its roots in eastern tantric practices, and seeks to liberate and refresh sex in the west from old cold traditional methods of sex.

A young guy asks about how to charm his girlfriend more, as there sex has become boring, and she says it becomes a lot like acting, pretending you don't really want it, and the importance of humor, to lighten the serious attitude some people take.

The lift stops, and instead of there being another bus, there is a cafe which we all walk into. Its one of these lastest sex cafes, where people exchange information on positions, sex practices, and also to meet new people. The young lady tells us to feel at ease, explore and have fun. I sit down at a table and slowly absorb my new surroundings. I have forgotten about my plane.

philosophy and escape

I'm having a conversation with Fred, Oli, Rosa, and Pete, and maybe a few others, and we are trying to make a decision on something....

It went a bit like this..

"If you look at the evidence then you will know what's going on outside of your imagining, and then you will know the right decision", someone says.

"but how much can we really know outside of our self?" I reply

"But that leads you into a whole philosophical discussion and that will take ages, we just need simple facts" Rosa says, and buries her head in the sofa because she doesn't have the energy or the desire for philosophy at this moment...

"Yes, is not all knowledge based on ones human experience, weather through personal exploration or scientific inquiry?" Fred speculates...

We philosophize about the experience of nature of reality way into the night....

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I'm heading back home. Brother Joe is driving, we are driving along Ecclesalle rd.
We stop off at Barkley Precinct, and Joe gets out to go buy something from Tescos.

I see there is a few cash machines by the wall of some shops there, so I think about getting out some money, but this would mean I would be leaving the car, and I don't have keys so I stay, what is more is that there are some dodgy looking people stood by the machines, and surrounding them covering the wall and the machines is loads of crappy tagging and vandalism; scrawls with pens, bits of chewing gum stuck onto the screens, broken glass... It looks totally horrible.

I wait for ages, then realise that I need to find Joe to tell him to get me something, so I leave the car, trusting it will be ok.

The police are everywhere now, and I get paranoid because I have a bit of weed in my pocket and they have dogs with them.

I start to walk away up eccy rd, and put my hand in my pocket and pull out the packet I thought was weed, but it turns out to be welsh onion bulbs for planting. I also now remember that I was meant to be looking after the car while Joe was shopping.

I start making my way back to the car park, but for some reason I can find my way there. Joe will be wondering where I am, I think to myself.

I have completely lost the car, and I start to panic. My energy levels are low, and I'm starting to get blurry vision, from the hunger in my belly.

I'm stumbling along the street now, exhausted, and totally lost. I can't see where I'm going, and I am really worried. Why do I feel like this?
I try to run, but my legs won't carry me. I decide that I need to trust the spirits to lead me home.

I now can see a bit more clearly, and I walk using all my remaining strength in the direction that the spirits tell me is home.

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Bill Clintons Garden

I'm with the clan. We have just finished a session, and I have forgotten every thing, and have lost my things.


I ask simon about the problem of trying to help people too much,
As some things can't be helped.

Simon says "its ok to say 'I want to help people'" Simon says.

We get told a story about about how Bill Clinton owns this huge bit of land somewhere, and how some people thought they would be helping the world by killing him, but the story suggests that, even if he were still the president it would not make the least difference, as its not really the leaders who make the decisions but the larger tyrants behind them. They would install someone stupider and keep doing exactly the same things. This is the real tyranny of our time.

Conor is now singing a song and ranting about the bullshit that comes out of american politics.

Noah has given me a plant, its a healing medicinal plant, its one i found the day before, and he calls it "bits".

The Vanishing Festival

I'm at a festival site, in a field somewhere in somerset, and all the crew members are getting the stage and the set ready for the big performance tomorrow night. Me and a whole bunch of us are preparing a special performance of a story of battles and freedom, fought and won. Kev the poet is playing Nelson Mandella, and the robe he has to wear is quite spectacular.

What is more, is that his costume doubles up as Nelson Mandella's wife, who, in this play, is an african queen and spirit medium.

Me, jude and mike are working on kev's costume meticulously, as we know it will blow people away. It is looking quite fantabulous. He is wearing an enormous egyptian style head dress of blue and gold, which we spent ages trying to get to stick; kev had to stand very still for a long time against a wall, which we pinned and glued the head dress to, so that it could stick. The rest of his robe was gold and red; the colours of a king. All in all kev looked nothing short of an egyptian god; a force not to be messed with.

Attached to the back of the costume we had to work on the costume of the wife; during the performance, kev would transform miraculously into Nelson's wife, so the costume had to be embedded into the main costume. Her costume was silver and blue, and was like a water goddess from atlantis.

We spend a long time over the costumes, as its hard to get them right; so much seems to go wrong, bits falling off and not sticking. Yet finally we seem to have done a good job. Me, jude and mike are all stood in front of Kev, admiring the work we have put in.

James and Radick have been working on the music, and have got it together, so we decide to do a little dress rehearsal, as the main performance is tomorrow.

During the rehearsal kev begins to embody the spirit of the parts he is playing. All of a sudden, he is no longer acting, but IS the parts he is playing.. As the music continues, the costume he's wearing becomes two characters, Nelson, AND his wife. She separates off and becomes her own automated self, while nelson continues to give speeches, and lessons. The characters have come magically alive.

This scares us a bit, as we didn't realise the power of what we were making. Will we ever get kev back? We hope so, but right now he is off in a merged state, not himself but two other characters simultaneously. He seems quite gone, lost, in a trance state, its almost worrying. Anyway, now the music dies down, and everything is back to normal, and people leave the stage in an ordered state, instruments, costumes, and tools of the play all in position, ready for the big performance tomorrow, starting in the morning and carrying on into the night. The dress rehearsal is over, and people are wrapped up in there sleeping bags dropping off to sleep.

-

I wake the next morning, and immediately something feels wrong. In fact everything feels wrong. Its too quiet. Where has everyone gone?
I get up and go to the theater tent. No one is there, and what is more is that nothing is there. Everything has disappeared. There are no instruments, no costumes, no stage; just an empty tent.

I go outside and look about the field. All the tents have disappeared, other than this performance tent. There is simply nothing around other than the old shepherds hut, which had always been here before the activities of the festival began.
I go inside the shepherds hut to see what might be in there. I find mike, getting up out of bed. I tell him that something has happened over night. He gets up and I let him discover the situation for himself.

After a few minutes he comes back to the shepherds hut.

"My keyboard, all my music equipment, everything, gone." He continues, " I need to stop this happening in my life; every time I find myself in a situation of abundance and plenty, I should settle, and not ask for anythinf more. This is a recurring theme in my life, it has happened a number of times before. Just when I think I'm sorted, the fairies and spirits come and take it all away."

Jude now walks into the shepherds hut. She is amazed at what has happened. She empathizes with mike as she is aware of how much he has lost, she has lost a lot less in comparison. Much of the music equipment was mikes that he had bought through hard earned cash.

Jude talks to mike about what he means about the fairies and spirits.

"Its as if I'm inviting it in on some level", mike continues, "its like they know that this is just another lesson to learn; that one day, when we die, we have to let go of everything, so why not learn it now, today in this moment?"

"Jesus was a bit like that", jude comments, "and you were playing the Jesus role, so in a sense, you are inviting it in. Jesus has that heroic quality to him."

"Indeed, I just wish I could control a bit more when I want that quality to be invoked and when I don't. Right now I wish I had my stuff, but I guess on some level its all for the best. Well, at least we are still alive!"

I'm in awe of how he is coming to terms with such a big loss. I think that maybe this is all a dream, or a magic spell we are under, so I tell him and jude that I think this may be the case, and say that I will look around for signs of fairy magic.

I wander out of the shepherds hut, and look around. The field is empty, but I notice a little spray can in the middle of the field, so I go to pick it up. Just an old graffiti spray I think, but then I notice the words "SPRAY THE STONES" on it, so I take the can and spray a bit of leftover paint on each of the stones dotted around at the edge of the field.

Grey Horse now appears, walking through the gate of the field. "Horse, help us" I ask.

Grey Horse tells us to travel, so we hook the horse up to the old shepherds hut, and travel along the road.

The road winds and turns along country lanes, and we feel we will soon catch up with the fairies who took our stuff. After a little while, the road comes to a dead end, and leads into a field full of bulls. The path goes through the field, and out of the other corner. We must travel through, there is no other way round.

We begin moving cautiously towards the bulls, as they are blocking the path, and they get angry, and start walking towards us, as if to charge.

Horse gets scared, and I try to reassure her, and tell her it will be ok. Whatever happens, we must not run through fear, confidence is the key with bulls.

The bulls see we are not afraid, and so they themselves are stopped in there tracks, and make passage for us to travel through. We feel we are safely through the herd, but as we think this, one of the bulls makes charge at us as we are heading away from them, scaring Horse. She starts to gallop in fear towards the gate at the other end of the field, and now all the bulls are chasing us, moving as one organism.

We race in panic to get to the gate. The leading bull has now turned into a grizzly bear, and has huge fangs, and demon eyes, and is chasing at an alarming speed. We know that we can't escape. I tell jude and mike to keep Horse going, while I try to make a distraction.

I jump off the shepherds hut to the edge of the field where I can get a large stick from a close by tree. I find one, and shout to grizzly bear to come after me. This distracts him, and now he's coming after me. I attack him on the nose with the stick, hitting him as hard as I can. It slows him, but its barely a scratch. however, I see that this has caused just enough time to get us to the edge of the field, and I now run with all my life to catch them up. Its a lost cause, however, as they are moving much too fast for me.
Ahead of me, the shepherds hut wheels break, and Horse comes loose, and, now freed, she gallops off at a great speed into the distance. Mike and jude get out of the hut and start running into the woods close by. I see them and follow. The bear and bulls will struggle to follow us into here. I catch them up, and we stop for an instant to get our breath back. Now we really have nothing, and the bear is closing in. We must act fast or we will be caught.

I ask the spirits to help us, and in answer to this call, White Wolf and Brown Dog run up to meet us. Mike jumps on the back of Wolf, and jude on the back of Dog, and we travel on them faster than ever before. For some reason, I am able to keep up with them, I know not how.

We travel through woods and fields all the way to the sea, at st Ives. My brother Simon is by the harbour, listening to the song imagine by john lennon. Its good to be back.

The Magick of Dreaming

Bendle the Herbalist has sent me an email saying he has found me a job, I glance over it, and think it says the job is in Oxford,

And then he sends me a note saying that he has found me a job, and I notice that its not in oxford but in Overy.

Its for 20£ an hour, and it work with medicines and plants, working alongside herbalists teaching how to find them in the wild and dry them.

---

I did some research as to weather the place Overy exists - it does - see here -


View dream map in a larger map

Even more amazing, = my Auntie Joe came this morning to say that she has some friends called Julie and John, who live in Overy, and that they have a big house with a big garden and are very rich! My auntie knew them from when she was living in brussels. i am going to go and visit them, as, "coincidentally", my parents said they would drop me off at oxford train station in just over a week. Magick!

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Continuation of the story - not a dream (i hope!)

So, I went to Overy, cycling from oxford. When i got there, I found John and Julies house, and i chatted to John about the dream, explaining why i had come to visit. He probably thought i was mad! He told me he knew nothing of herbalism in the area, but did tell me about the old farm, which had been around for as long as the abbey - dorchester on thames abbey, which is right next door practically to Overy. This was a pilgrimage site i find out! I asked every one living in overy (all 6 houses) if anyone knew anything about herbalism, but it turned out to be a dead end. There was a flood plain behind the houses that i walked around, it was a wild life conservation area, and i found some interesting wild plants, but no herbalists, and no money! The last person told me this info - : habitational name from a place named with the Old English phrase ofer ie ‘over, across the river’, as for example Overy in Oxfordshire. In some cases the name may be topographic, with the same meaning, or with Old English eg ‘dry ground in a marsh’, ‘well-watered land’ as the second element.

So, A bit of the puzzle was found. a week later, i head off to a festival on a spontaneous whim, as my herbalist Robyn tells me she has free tickets for people doing herbs and such like. I go to do wild food walks. It was a beautiful setting, a dry spot by the lake. On one walk which lasted an hour, I made £19. Bendle was there. I tell him the story.

Neuroglia

NOTE - - Neuroglia is greek for glue

In medicine Neuroglia
Refers to the supporting tissues of the brain.

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the dream

Christopher mason is playing me his latest tune on fruity loops. Its a dance electronic sounding tune, and I'm really quite impressed. He is pleased with it, and shows me the different tracks that make up the tune.

---


Me and Adam are heading to a pub in Broomhill in Sheffield. We need to pick up this hard drive that's been hidden under the table just at the entrance to the pub. When we get there, i find it in a plastic bag under a mans chair. He didn't realize it was there and gets a bit annoyed because he wished he had found it first.

Nigel appears in the pub, and me and Adam sit down with him at a little circular table in the middle of the pub. A football match is being played on the telly, and there are these three roasted chickens arranged in a triangle on a circular dish on
the circular table in front of us. The whole thing looks horrible so I try not to look at it. I can't believe this is food, and I am beginning to feel a bit uncomfortable in here.

Adam makes a joke out loud about the french, as a means to get
on friendly terms with the other people in the pub. I don't get the
joke so I ask him what the joke was all for. It turns out that Sheffield Wednesday are loosing a football match against the french football team.
I burst out laughing, because now i realize why everyone is looking so serious in the pub, they are all Wednesday supporters, and then i realise that I better keep my mouth shut, because some people in the pub could likely get very offended, and i could get beaten up or something..


---

I'm on my way to visit James clegg. He has moved house, he's now living in a shared terraced house, which has been joined with a few other terraced houses by knocking through the walls Adjoined to the terraced houses is a huge meditation hall, and
suddenly I am reminded that I have been here before...

Its so exciting to see james again. He is looking well.
"What an amazing hall this is" I exclaim,
He grins, and nods,.

I remember how I know it, my parents used to use the space for church
gatherings of some sort.

There are a group of friends sat round a table, and richard clare is
giving us some gardening wisdom, and tip toeing around, with the lightest step, in a devil like dance fashion!


Richard says, "support is the vehicle for neurolagia"


I ask a friend to note it down, as i know this to be an important bit of information.

---

Adam and me are now eating breakfast together. We are eating a boring porridge or something similar. A Chef walks in and has a huge fish on a silver plate. He asks us if we would like to try some fish for breakfast.

It seems a bit of a weird thing to have for breakfast, but Adam says yes, and I am keen to try a bit.

On trying the fish, i find it has no flavour; a sure sign of farmed fish.

Conor is here and he asks, 'damaging to environment, on scale of one to ten, ?"

The chef holding the huge fish says, " well to be honest its probably about 12.

A Holiday in Brighton

I'm meeting Tim out on the allotments. It is a sad sight. All the allotment are becoming a desert. Everything is windswept and barren. There are no hedges, no plants, just dry red bare earth with a few tufty bits of grass. There are no people. All the allotments are lifeless. Tim is working there in the baking heat. Things look dead. Everything.

There is an air of hopelessness, like 'why bother?' I see the squash plants dry and shrivelled up. It is very sad. Tim sees my sadness, and says, "let's go on a journey".


We travel by bike, and then car, Tim is driving really fast. We are by the coast in no time. It is a scary, thrilling ride... I have a feeling we are going to drive into the water, my heart is in my mouth.

It feels a familiar journey somehow. I recognise the road.
And we drive into brighton, and I have I feeling I know where we are going, but the road just goes round in a big loop.. It doesn't arrive anywhere... Up and round, and curving down tightly, now backwards, parallel to where we're have just come...

Then we get on a train. We are in Brighton, our destination. We can see the sea and the weather is fine. We are both happy. The train drives through the centre of the town, and it is like a tourist trip. I see the pavilion, and churches, the pier, and then amazing mosques. I see amazing lit up palaces and bright lights and amazing structural architecture. I jokingly say "I want one of those in my back garden, and one of those, and those.."

Pointing to all the grand buildings. Some people are on the train who are young, very rich and very stuck up. They are the prince and princess of some sultan in the far east. They are talking like commoners, saying "well, I visited my palace in Bengal, and got a new wing built on it, and wanted a new hall built on my palace in Malaysia, so spent a few hundred million on that, but they did it bad, so I don't go there anymore.. " It was ridiculous hearing them talk... They obviously had far to much money to know what to do with it. I was very surprised to see them in this train in brighton...

The train drives right through one of there palaces, and it is really dangerous, as its in a big hall, and people are jumping across the track just in front of the train. We stop at the last second, just as someone arrives to get on the train.

Next Generation Rebels

I have to get out of this place; to run away,

Escape the reality of this life.
I follow a spontaneous movement to leave.

I don't have a plan, I will formulate one as I go. I need to make quick changes, or ill get stuck,


I'm at the train station, traveling through the ticket machines. I decide to head to france.

After buying a ticket, I realize I don't have any money. I also don't have a passport, but this doesn't cross my mind.

I have difficulty with ticket places. I haven't thought about the other end, where I will stay, where I will sleep. I worry that I will get cold, and ill, because I will be forced to sleep outside. I think I am crazy, doing this, but I know I really can't stay hear.

-

I am on the train now. I being searched for by the security. I have cheated the system somehow, and they want to arrest me. I have to make some quick changes at a station ahead, and once I am on the train to france, they won't be able to follow me. I get off the train when it stops, out onto the platform. I'm waiting with a bunch of other people, in anticipation for the next train, eyes alert for signs of security guards.

While buying a ticket with the little money I do have I find money in machine, in the change area. It is lots! Lots more than I imagine one might find left in a machine. Notes and a load of gold coins. Some of the gold coins are broken. I count it: about 120 pounds or so! What a stroke of luck! This should see me through. I can pay for a bed and breakfast with this.

The next train pulls in. I get on, everything is much smoother than I imagine it will be. The train becomes a mono rail, and then an overhead wire carriage that leads us over the sea. I feel safer now...

----

Adam is having party.

There are lots of people, and I tell them the story of the journey: finding money in the machine, and show them the money, what's left of what I didn't spend.

My family is there, mum and dad, brothers and sister. We are eating a feast together. Lots of family friends are around. We are chatting and telling stories.

-
I am on the school bus from notre dame, sat on the top of the bus looking out at the view of the city as we drive along the road.

I am seeing the younger generation rebels, sorting out weed on bus. I see there spirit, and am hopeful, as they are an intelligent and friendly bunch, similar to me and my friends when we were their age.

Everyone is cautious of the bus inspector.

He is inspecting every ones behavior, looking for the tell tale signs of drug culture. He has been employed to keep his eye open for suspicious behavior.
I have to hide my pouch of weed and tobacco from him when he comes round.

He tells us all that he doesn't really like this as his job, but he is doing it only because there is no other option for him. He knows that he will be made redundant soon.
Tells us of the current job situation, how nothing is certain nowadays. We feel sorry for him, and realize that he is really on our side.

As we are driving along we see a building on fire down in town. It is a flat, (towerblock)
Down near ecclesalle rd where it meets the ring road.

The inspector tell us that it is a business building, (not residential) and that it was surely going to happen soon.

We can see the flames coming out of the roof from miles off. I wonder weather the fire services will be able to rescue any of the building or weather it will be completely burnt to the ground.

Salvadories house
Eating cerial
Joe sal a picture appears with his mum n dad on and starts talking to him

Giant pumkins outside

Lift off the ground

Like a burial mound

The tunnels in the house

A church gathering

Deeper level of exchange happening because of a shared focus - religion,

Meet catherine


Meet ruth - new roots
She has grown stronger, still appreciate our friendship



At festival

Mike stanton
N kev. Going to play on main stage

Technical difficulties

Avalanche

Avalanche

I am out on a walk with my family. We are near wellow. We pass an old quarry, which has become abandoned.

I look at the stone lying around, checking to see if there are any bits to pick up, and ask dad if they are worth keeping.

The quarry sides get very steep, and now its become a hillside.
I notice one or two boulders are a bit loose. I go over to them, to look at them, and just by touching one of them it comes loose, and begins to roll down the hill, gathering momentum.

The force and vibration it causes on the earth makes more boulders start to role, and soon there are a dozen or more large boulders moving with real speed down the hill.

There are people out on walks, and picnics, and I am worried that they could be injured, or worse, killed by these boulders, that were sparked by me. My dad says it is likely that someone will get hurt, and the consequences are just too big! I yell down the hill telling people to watch out, but the low rumbling noise is plenty a warning to those below, drowning out my calling.

I see people running in all directions to escape the falling boulders, and I hear shouts and screams. I say a prayer to god to look after everyone, and that no-one get hurt. There is nothing more I can do.

My dad knows this, and so he is not angry with me, because in a way it was just an accident waiting to happen.

We wander on, and the walk becomes an adventure playground.

Now I'm going to the highcliffe pub, its an important gathering of sheffield friends.

We have all got drinks, and John is here. He looks very sad and mournful, and I soon realize the reason why. One of my friends sitting next to me tells me that his mother had committed suicide only a week or so ago. He is still very much in grieving, trying to come to terms with the tragic event. Apparently she was terribly stressed by so many things. John has been blaming part of her actions on himself, which naturally is causing him a huge amount of regret.

Me and my friends do our best to support him, but we can see that it will be a while before he becomes his usual self again, if at all.

It gets to closing time, and we are all asked to leave. I find I have left loads of my stuff lying around, and it takes me a while to gather it all together.

And now I'm out on the street again, and back in the playground.
Dad and joe and simon are chasing me round an assault course,

"You just need to find out what you're really meant to be doing", dad says, "then everything will be fine"

"You need to set up an abundance project in Bulgaria. I will give you my prayers and blessings to ensure that it will work" he says.

I then watch him speak out his prayers and his blessings while holding out his hand in a position that calls to the spirits and to spirit.

I feel a sense of confidence and certainty rise up in me.
Now I see jude, she is painting a picture, in the style of Pissaro, of people sitting along a river bank, its the river avon, and we are sitting together. Its a beautiful sunny day.

Jude is unhappy with her picture. At first she gets angry, then she gets sad. I suggest going for a swim in the river, so we do, and we find these motor powered surf boards. I suggest that we head down stream on an adventure until we find the sea. Jude and another friend who has joined us are up for it. We motor surf down until the motors break, and now we have found a barge and we are on the canal. We reach a lock, and we notice that they have all become automatic, and solar powered, so we don't need to do anything, we just wait. The gates are opening, and we are heading through. But suddenly there is a technical failure, and we think the barge is going to get flooded by a falling wall of water.

-
I am now with anne marie. We are up a tower block, and looking out of the windows over sheffield. The windows are tainted blue coloured, and the view matched a view in a picture that she had painted, or it might have been a photograph that she had taken. It was a very similar image. She was having difficulty with something, I think it was that the view was not right somehow, but the colour was right..

note style dream

Cousins - at mark and viv's house, insulation on the walls. - it is really chunky and sticks out from the walls.


Sat with the girls.



In a school-
I have a job to put stickers on everyone there, at an assembly.

Traveling across the moors

Meet some people sat by a rock.


I meet maria, some art project got a lot of money to plant a food garden on the moors, they were growing sweet corn, and beans, and all the usual.

I am impressed with the effort.

Wandering down ally-
I find my way back to the famous memorials shop in sheffield that is down by the steel works, near abbey dale rd,

Dad is there with me. We look at some tomb stones, and also notice that the place is being used as a blacksmiths workshop.

jedi warriors

I'm with mum dad and James in car. We have just got back from being out.

We are locked out

Joseph is in

I ask him wot he has seen

He says he has seen mini light sabers everywhere,


I find a few , they are really amazing, they light up and you can flick them on


Simon is playing with them, he has seen lots.


I find so dildos, they look like such cheep plastic imitations I can only imagine how unsatisfactory they would be.

-

I have some money in my pocket that I didn't know I had

I am walking through a rough area of town, and I discover the money just at the wrong time, when some people are walking past, they see the money and I get the feeling that they want to rob it off me.

I am with granny and judith

We are watching revenge of the syth

Granny says 'its not a very good picture'

' Its meant to be like that, I say, half cartoon like'

The dark side warriors are all lined up in military formation.

--

My phone has extended into a much bigger thing. I don't know if I like it, I am trying to delete the extra applications..

allotment pond

I'm at turners,
Jessica, where are we going to sleep?

I am planning on sleeping in one room,

A strange creature crawls in through the window, I am sick of seeing it again, so I grab it by the neck and am going to chuck it out of the window, but someone stops me, and we let it out carefully.


I meet adriano

We buy tools, we think about nicking stuff, break in , get caught, only just after 530,


Buy loppers

Adrianos Knife needs mending

Stanley

We wander up hill, he says he thought about spending money on a tea party, so we lucky,

Richard is up on the allotment

He's been working up there all day long,
I am surprised to see him.

My dad has dropped off various things from our house, the old roman mosaic, plus some blocks of limestone, and limestone dust,
I can see from the look in his eyes,
he is annoyed with me

He hugs one of my friends, adriano, and sara,

I cut him a bit of leek to try that is in my hand but drop it and so cut him another one, but he is annoyed because it still has a bit of soil on it. He says its ok this time, because he can handle this, but for others it would be no good for them.
"
Some of us have to work all day" he says to me with contempt.
It is evident that this is what he has be doing.

He is digging a square pond, which is lined with bricks and cement. I think we will put a liner into it when finished.

All the bits of materials from my parents old place are being included up here, the mosaic for paths the limestone for paths and walls.



Richard I feel, is going to take over up there, he wants the power of that place, as he has been kicked off his other allotments, for being too aggressive and disturbing other allotmenteers.

Fred and oli are here, and they have been roped in by rich to help dig the pond.

I have to admit to myself that the pond is actually going to look really good when finished.

I am worried that rich will claim this space as his own, and then people will only be able to come up here if they work with rich on his terms. I know what he is like only too well.

just being

Jack is playing music with a tabla player

My dad is there and I am colouring in a big square patch in gold, on a piece of paper.

"Its not really doing much" dad says,

"Some people find being more than doing" I say,

"Its true, sitar goes very well with tabla," he says,

The music is fantastic.

gaga

Meet gaga,
Conor introduces me to him,
He is very frail and wobbly. He has a constant big grin on his face.

Kids journeying


Adam and liz's. A fire burns, I have to get out.



Kids journeying
In school, I see two kids outside discussing journeys. A teacher is teaching a class of kids to journey

Eating chocolate squares from a box

Heeley city farm, its become abandoned, ma and friends want to help out with it.

the Valley Of The Moon

In bingham park - I meet some wild man there at 2 in morning with a friend. He is selling special magical instruments made out of wood, I buy a half finished one because I want to finish it myself, but he won't accept cash, so I give him some homemade chutney.

People have been having fires in the wood, and there is quite a lot of mess. People are wanting to move in, to live in the wood. I come across a swarm of hover flies, and they cover me entirely, and I am really worried but it turns out fine as they cannot sting. There are thousands of insects and animals in the wood, and people have been leaving litter which makes all the creatures sad, as its there home. I feel like someone between the worlds, half of the human world, and half of the wooded world....


I am now over in sharrow somewhere,
and I am staying in a house full of beautiful women. They are mostly foreign exchange students, they introduce me to a frenchman who is a revolutionary and has been fighting the authorities, he is in hiding because the authorities want him behind lock and bar.

They want me to stay with them and enjoy the life of pleasure that they offer but I can't, despite the fact that I do want to stay. I have a mission to complete.


I am now in a built up environment, and there are high buildings surrounding me.
I am with the french guy and we are being chased by the police.

I must protect this french guy, since he is a special revolutionary, and will help to change the world into a peaceful place. He has been causing unrest in the people by raising awareness, and they are claiming back what was once their own.

We are on our bikes, and we are cycling through a residential area. The police have lost our scent now, but I can see, up in the road ahead, a road block by a roundabout. There is no way out. We can't turn around as that would look obvious, so we cycle up on the pavement, and hope that they don't notice us.

They try to stop us, and so, without a seconds hesitation, we cycle off into the entrance of the park at the roundabout, where the cars can't follow. They know that we are the ones they have been looking for, and are hot on our trail now. If we go back onto the road, is there any hope of escape?

The police have blocked all the entrances of the park with cars, and patrols. We are trapped, it seems. I take us into the restaurant cafe in the park as it may well be a good hiding place.

While I am acting casual, buying a drink, the frenchman is getting us a disguise, and we put on our disguise in the toilets. Unfortunately, this causes a bit of suspicion with some of the customers, especially since now, the police have undercover spies in the cafe who are on the lookout for anything suspicious. I can see intuitively who is against us.

We must leave, the police are moving in on us...


The police are everywhere, they are too quick for us. This is our last chance. We walk out of the restaurant onto the road, with our disguise on before the news gets to the other police. Just as we pass another road block, without getting stopped, the word gets out about our disguise, and I can see that they are turning around and coming after us.

Back on our bikes now, it is dusk and the light is dimming. A yellow moon is rising above a little valley to our left creeping up the hill, and there is a sign post at the entrance to a dirt track saying, Valley of the Moon.

I know this to be our only chance... we must cycle through the Valley of the Moon, with all its dark paths, and hidden bogs, and winding mazes... The moon will be our guide. Perhaps they will be unable to track us in here...

Moon protect us, I pray.

The Fate Of the Tribes

I am in sheffield with my family, and we are walking through an old area of sheffield, down by a river and some old industrial buildings.

We look up onto the hill side, and I see, to the right side of the sunny hillside, an old medieval field system of old walls, and to the left, larger fields stretching out to the moors.

I say to my family, I must wander over to those hills, I might find a home in those hills,

And I am genuinely interested in seeing what they are like, and if there might be a spring nearby.

Up on the hill, now, and we are re-enacting a historical battle.

Two armies are gathered; I'm being lead by Snowfalcon, he is dressed in black, and is leading us into a dance... We are putting down our weapons and joining him in this dance.

The other army is being lead by Coyote, and he is leading them in the ways of martial arts and nature survival...

We are all lead into a circle, on the edge of the hillside, where, in the center of the circle, the youngest of the warriors must dual, to an unknown end, to decide the fate of each army.

I watch as the Son of Coyote, and one of our warriors steps into the circle. Their knives are in there hands, ready to fight.

Our warrior throws his knife at Coyote's son, and coyote's son jumps out of the way, the knife falling to the floor. Coyote's son picks it up.

His father speaks up saying
'Now we have the upper hand'

Our warrior is undaunted by this advantage of his opponent. He knows he has the skills of movement. He runs at coyote's son and kicks one of the knives out of his hand.

We stand, watching, with baited breath, the fates of the tribes unfold...

new sheds and curses...

I am at Richards place, up on the allotments.

Vanessa is giving talk to him, me and conor about structures,
"Look, this is the structure of a hierarchy, and this is a structure of a non-hierarchy" she points to two different diagrams.

Conor is not convinced by what she is saying. To him, they both look the same diagram. He questions Vanessa's logic, and it stumps Vanessa and leaves he on the back foot.

--
I am in sheffield in an urban back yard, and I am rebuilding a shed. It had been taken down and now needed rebuilding just round the corner. Richard is guiding the rebuild, he says that it needs to be here, right in the middle of the yard.

Conor is saying to Richard that he feels that his toothache is a curse that someone put on him. I say to him that some people think that curses are not real, and that they are only effective as placebo.

Richard says, "well, never mind if its not real, what about all the chaos that it brings?"

--

I am journeying home. I have no clothes, and I bump into friend claire who is same, naked like me. It's snowing, and we make a sledge, which is getting pulled by a wolf.

-

I am in a place where people are doing martial arts or something...

crossing the waters

I am visiting the garden of one of my old school teachers. He is showing me round his garden, and about how he designed it. He has asked me to come and look as it will help him make some important decisions on how to sort out the water issue; he built a pond awhile back and it has been leaking recently and has been flooding his little garden.

At the back of his garden is a little island of land, about the size of a large shed, surrounded by water. My friends are here now, and the waters are rising. Soon one won't be able to get to the island without getting ones feet wet.

I make a leap of faith to get onto it, and the earth on which my feet land starts to crumble away into the water behind me, but I just manage to get on safely. I look back to my friends on the other side. It will b too late now for me to get back or for them to get across...

-----

I am with my friends in bristol. Mikey needs some help shifting a bed out of his room. James and everyone else are too busy playing music to help him, so I go and help. I find a broken spade.

the magical estuary

Me, dad and jude are watching a famous guy on ted talks, speak about this journey he went on, which was very dangerous. It involved going on a giant rolercoaster ride up to the north pole. On the way back it took him to glasgow, the place where he would find his home to tell his story.

He then went onto finding a famous causeway, in Glasgow, where the tide sinks down enough across one of the river estuaries during low tide to get all the way across the sands, to this special place where you find lots of things that have floated down the river and got trapped in the mud and sands there. Near to this natural gathering point he found a magical land which became his home for the rest of his life.

---

I am walking through a parade in the streets of Glasgow, and I meet some of my brother Joe's old friends, two girls, they come with me, as we are going to a talk by my Brother about how he came to buy this special shop and turn it into an art space.

My brother Joe is now telling a crowd of us about this new shop. The location of this shop was just the other side of the tidal causeway, a place that overlooked the estuary. He is now telling a group of us how he came to buy it.
He told us how he spoke to the landlord if he could buy it off him, and the landlord said yes. There was a lot of work that needed doing to the building, and one of these things was that there was a tree growing up close to the building which needed digging out.

After digging out the tree, he went to gather other drift stuff from boTtom of river, the gathering point. He found some ornaments, 2 big porcelain turtles, and other things as well.


--

I meet fred, and we go on journey to find the bottom of this river, the magical estuary which deposits all sorts of useful things in it.

We have to walk out along a ridge into the estuary as far as we can go, and then we begin to wade through the mud and sands. We find a high point in the muds and sands, which takes us all the way to the bottom of the magical estuary. There fred finds a stereo player which has a tape of old folk music, which still plays and works. We listen to it while we seek around for more interesting things...

damage to the Maltings, and Mushrooms.

Talking to jill T about the book The. Triumph of the Moon, she doesn't like the look of it, as she thinks its a pagan book, and is worried by it,

Dad has been reading it and says its quite interesting, has read a page or two about a church in it, and recommends it. Jill is now curious, so asks dad to show her the page, and dad opens the book to the page but finds he has got pasta on the page he was reading, so he has to brush it off before he can show it to her.


-

Me and james are in wellow in the garden.

We are in the habit of playing a game of rolling logs down the hill.

The game consists of 2 giant logs, about 6 or 7 meters in length, and about a meter and a half in diameter.

Rolling logs this size down a hill, would, as anyone could imagine, be extremely dangerous. Well, we don't roll them far. One of the logs we keep in a fixed position half way down the hill and then when we role the other one, it crashes into this one and stops.

One day james has a few friends come round to visit. 2 ladies and boy. We tell them about the game. They get one of the logs rolling with a big push, and it rolls down towards the other log.
This time it hits the stable log and for some reason it bounces over the log and continues rolling down the hill.

Oh no! Its heading for the house!! There is nothing we can do, so we just hope and pray everything will be ok.

The log bounces up just before hitting the house and crashes into house, amazingly not breaking the windows or the wall.

We run into the house to check if everything is ok. Dad asked what happened. He is upstairs. "Your always causing more mess" he says. "Look at these floor boards, they are all out of line"

He shows us the floor boards on the landing. A few of them have been completely blown out of place by the shock of the log.


Dad gets to work on mending the floor.

-

I am with a large group of friends up the porter valley.

We are doing some environmental redevelopment work in the woods and fields. Mr Boardman, the PE teacher has been leading us. We are now having to put gravel over a big load of plastic, under which there is sand.

"You could have at least watered the sand before hand" he says.

I don't get it.

--

I am now out with Bendle foraging for Mushrooms.

Its nearly magic mushroom season, I think to myself.

It has been very damp, and its good timing. I think I am with Rich from Coed too. Bendle finds these ones that are a deep purpley blue colour, with gnome like hats on the top.

This one he finds is an old one, it is big and he wants to show us the spores. He picks it up and shows us underneath.

dreams in draft note form

On a ship,

A boy who sings and says the tragedy of the world - what! He is tellling people about the bad things that have happened,

One weird bit was of a story of a man who was thin and had a love who was beautiful, but the got separated,

He in hospital for year, puts on lots of weight, it makes her recover, she ill, but then he changes,looses his mind, she does also loose her beauty. She comes back to him, he is glad but has found another love, who doesn't love him as much but has more beauty.

Jumps off, to demonstrate, - hero achetype,

I have to follow, my brother is here,

- a wearhouse,

Now meet an amazing tracker, - wisdom elder, says about prediction, things happening


I have to go somewhere on insticnt
Giles, bump into, he doesn't need allotment key, he gives to me,

I take to tim,

Allotment, sheds, meet a girl, who is showing me a new way of blowing bubbles, with a sponge, creative imagination.


John biggins, meet, talking about control, needing control, worry about loosing control.



- nan coed- has a biggest mask on- like an elephant, all colourful

Rawley is there,

-----

Library
Rules no music

Sarah starts a song simple

Everyone joins in, can't stop it


--

At a school, we have a week to teach the kids what we know.

Snow falcon is leading us, and we are getting into little groups and putting on plays and performances. We meet up for 3 meals in the day,

I ask the kids weather they want electronic or acoustic song.

I decide to perform earth song.

Lots of instruments to choose from.

---------

I'm at braziers,

I am having so much fun!

Adriano

Gisellie
Was giant
In big field we little U


Jameshealing devise


Braziers


Water walk way

Dad

Elfin

a precious thing from the sky

I'm in the park just down from my parents house. There are lots of people out playing as its a sunny day and its the holidays. We are going to have a mini music gathering, so everyone is called together. We sit in a circle, and people are invited to play some music. I play my Mbira and T-, one of my teachers, hears it and says to people there, 'mbira is my main instrument too. ' And to me says 'Let me look at your mbira'. I give it to him to look at. It looks different now in his hands. He says 'this is a very magical mbira, tell them where it is from',
'Zimbabwe' I tell everyone, and someone asks how much it cost, and I say 100 pounds. Some people laugh, and I don't really know why. is it because it seems expensive or cheap? I think to myself. I don't know.

now I have it back and I am playing it again... It has a magical effect.

--

We are on the top field, and its the wild heart gathering opening ceremony. We don't know what is going to happen. Everyone is gathered round in a circle.

Into the centre of this large silent and still circle walks a singer. She is short and has wide hips, giving her a grounded look.
She has a poise and confidence about her that grabs every ones attention.

She starts singing a quiet melody, which winds and twists and turns, and draws me in. Its as if she is making it up as she goes along, but for some reason, I know what is coming next in the melody and I get compelled to sing along.

I join in singing with her, I know this is my role, to be spontaneous, and I know instinctively my line I must sing. She smiles at me, and we go into a musical trance, and more and more people join in with us in this spontaneous song, that seems so rehearsed.

Dancers join me and the singer in the centre of this wide circle. They are all girls, and are dressed up in costume; flowing silky dresses of white and blue. They have a routine that they are following, a fast paced, flowing circle dance, that spirals in and out of its self. The dancers look at me, and I notice how beautiful they are. I suddenly feel like I've done the wrong thing joining this opening ceremony in such a spontaneous way, as I really don't know how to dance in synch with them, and I'm not wearing any special costume. I look to the singer lady for guidance but she is lost in the music, so I do what feels most right; I join the dancers moving in spirals.

It is very hard keeping up with them as they are moving very fast, and I get behind, and muddled up; my feet cross at awkward points, and I feel like I must look the fool to the audience,- one guy not in costume trying to fit in with all these beautiful rehearsed girls in flowing costume.

The girls find it really funny, and some try to tell me what to do, 'put one foot here, follow this way round, now cross over, and under...' They know I am exposing my self, and do their best to help me not make a fool of myself.

---

I meet S. She has moved into a new house in netheredge, a house on stead rd.

S is in the basement singing, and clearing out the old crap of the house.
She has got into a lot of debt with people over money, and these people are after her to make her pay for her debt. She thinks she may find something valuable in the basement of the house.

Her new flat mate doesn't like me, and gets into an argument with me. He has had mental difficulties, and has had a lot of difficulties with his relationships with different women. Now he has a crush on someone who is really too young for him, but he doesn't care, he says, 'but aren't you attracted to her as well?'

---
I am in a school somewhere in sheffield.
There is a corruption going on in this school, we are being made to wear uniform when we don't need to. I decide to find a way to get rid of this corruption, and Adriano gives me a pack of cards to use, to help expose this corruption, so that we can get rid of it.

I don't quite know how to use the cards, but it was something to do with dividing the pack in a particular way... But however I did it, it has now been done, and this corruption has been exposed.

Three or more people are now angry with me. They are class mates who, when finding out about the uniform corruption, decided not to wear their uniform, and con-sequentially have been put into detention by the teachers. They are blaming me, as they know I exposed it, and if they had not found out they would never have got tempted to push the 'fake' rules, and so get into detention. I see the difficulty I have got my self into, and realise I need to be more careful.

I go back to the school. There are a number of class mates in detention or something, waiting to do there lines, and
I see Nageeb through the window; he is one of the ones who got into trouble, and he looks at me with contempt.

I go back to Adrianos house, thinking that he might be able to help me find a way to sort out the problems that I have sparked off.

He says I can't really get him involved. It's nothing to do with him he says. I leave his house, and as I'm leaving I notice he has left the pack of cards which I used, on the door step. I pick them up, and flick through the pack. I notice something I had not noticed before when I used them.

They are a magic pack
Of cards, used to trick people. Some of the cards have no figures on them at all, some have figures on both sides, some are slightly smaller than others, and some are in different colours, and some have a secret coding system on the back so that you know what card you are going to get.

I ask the pack to show me a card that will have meaning for me now in this moment.

I get the ace of diamonds.

Diamonds are tough, I think, formed inside the earth. This card is symbolic of the earth I think, and so I decide that I must think about the earth and my connection to the earth.

At this moment a piece of metal comes spinning through the air above me. It spins like a giant boomerang spinning in circles, making wide arc like patterns across the sky.

I remember something someone told me about collecting and precious metals from the sky, - if your lucky you may find granitium - a special alien metal, which they use in there space crafts. Its the most valuable thing you will ever find, someone once told me.
I don't know what this spinning object will be, but I follow it all the same, for I feel it's important for me to follow it.

It spins down through the streets, this way and that. For ages and ages I chase it, thinking it will never fall to the ground. It leads me zig-zaging amongst the streets, like I'm on a wild goose chase. I think it must be important that no one sees me pick it up, as it could be the most valuable thing I ever find.

It is now getting lower to the ground, and is now only about a foot off the ground. I am right on its heels.

It clatters to the ground just at a junction to Abbeydale road. There are lots of people about, and I pick it up as quickly as possible, as I don't want them to see me pick it up. The object is a circular shape with three spiky wing bits coming off it, making it look a bit like a three spiked crown.
The metal is strong and light in weight, and dark coloured.

When I move even only a few yards, some assassins who have been tracking this special object fly out of the trees around, and point there guns at me and fire.. They have been tracking this object and its very important that they get it back up to the sky, as its a power object. I don't want to loose it, but I also don't want to loose my life, so I hurl it as hard as I can away from me. I don't know where it landed.

I wake up.

in anticipation of autumn

I am with Kristina, and we have been making art work, which we are now showing to our friends. We are going to auction off our work, and see what we get for it. Kristina has done a painting in an impressionist style, and when she shows it to our friends they all love it. One of them really wants to by it, and when this picture goes up for auction he bids the highest, and pays about 600 pounds for it. Me and Kristina are surprised that it sold for so much, and Kristina is very pleased with herself.

Her mum phones her up and is also very pleased with her when she hears the news.

Kristina is happy, but she is wondering where her love is. She wants to find that special person who can love her. She is searching for that person.

--
Now I am with Elise and some friends. Elise has been taking photos, and using special effects on the photos to make them look weird. She had projected the photos up on a screen and it really surprised one of my friends, as the photos were strange, and magical. One of them was a picture of Elise herself, and the effect had blurred out all the face other than the eyes and mouth. It was like something from the cheshire cat in Alice in Wonderland.

--

I am now at an event. Its a seed swap and information swap, and general social for people who are interested in growing. I am there to give out seeds and talk to people about herbs and wild medicines.

I meet Adriano and he asks me about meadow sweet. It is just flowering now, and I tell him about putting the flowers in drinks. I say that meadowsweet is a cure all, 'makes you feel human again' plant, which has been used for so many different things, that the best thing would be to look on the internet for a detailed study. We have a computer with us, so that's what we do.

Robyn is there and all of a sudden we are in the woods looking for plants....

We are back in the room with people now, I meet Diane, and chat to her about growing things and how the allotments are going. There is a table with lots of seeds on. I am just about to head off somewhere, but find a package of seeds of squash that I thought I had lost, but here it is. I am very happy.. I hope someone hadn't thought they were for giving away as it would be disappointing to find them gone.

poisoning

The pagans have been trying to poison the christians. I can't remember what plants or methods they have been using, but it is quite an old tried and tested method, one which was used may back in history. Also, they are poisoning them, as it is a re-enactment of what happened, and this is not serious, its just so that we can experience the past. In the story, the christians figure out that they have been poisoned, so they try to get back the pagans, by poisoning them in return. I am playing a part as a christian, and I take, symbolically, foxglove to the door of the pagans house, break off a bit so it looks edible, and leave it just outside on a tree stump. I see one of them, and I tell them to put up a big poisonous sign above it, as I know we are just acting here, and it would be awful to make a mistake.

They put up a sign, and I feel relieved.

I am now in a wearhouse in bristol, and I meet Joe. We have to get ourselves to meet james and jude, which we do, and together we travel across bristol, the colours of the evening in the sky.

Mum is cooking and she has been given
Dead wood pigeon and doesn't want to deal with it so she gives it to me, as I am happy to gut it and do necessary preparation on it. I am surprised at how big this pigeon is, and how bright the colours are on its back.

I meet John Coltraine and he takes me to the sea side to show me something, another bit of history. He tells me to watch the ocean waves, and to tell him what I see.

I see some birds swimming on the ocean, and one of them has got oil around them. Its just a little oil, so I think nothing of it, but then I see in the waters that oil is coming in from somewhere, and its making all the birds sick. I see the ocean waters fill with black rainbow oil, and it sticks to everything, and damages it or kills it.

crazy music iprovisations

Meet rich

Talks to me about his projects

And mentions gs, I have to walk away,

But also have to pay attention to what he is saying to me as well, - I have to walk away from gs too.


We are going to have music event, me and conor are going to practice some songs for it,
I call off, because I don't feel ready yet,
But then realise I must play stuff with him, even if its only improvised.

We are in a big upstairs hall in a building, me an conor. There are a few mics plugged in and some instruments lying around,

We have done some music playing practices here before, but this time it happens a lot more spontaneous.

I start singing really high notes, conor joins in, harmonising with them, and i go into a trance, and I begin to draw huge spirals on the floor, one continuous long line all the way round the room, while changing the pitch of my voice. I start growling and howling and making all these weird noises. There is someone in the room witnessing our performance, and both me and conor get the feeling that I have really freaked them out. Conor says its ok, and they say that too. It was just a bit of a surprise.

I end up lying in the corner of the room... There is some graffiti on the wall, infact all the walls are now covered with graffiti.

Some people are improvising on the piano. They want me to join in with them, so we form a trio, and they hold a drone rhythm on the lower half, while i improv doing lots of really weird stuff over drone, it is totally wild again, atonal, and even though they are surprised at how wild the sound is, it does work, and sounds really great.. I am realy enjoying myself!

squeezing a building

Often I write down dreams in note form on my phone as I don't have energy to write them out in full when I am in the semi awake state.
Here is a dream in note form.


Mum - lift

Going to go with alys, we get separated, can't get back in touch with her.

Trouserless, at a party

Meet robert dunseath,
So over joyed, we hug, and I cry a tear.

I have important work to do and people to meet,

Meet lots of old friends




Gig listings,

Someone has given me a name, and put me on a gig, don't know if I want to play yet,


2 Spirit people on train
A man and a woman.

I have an animal object with me.
Little carved bird, it is a spirit.

One of them had a little model sheep. He told me that he went everywhere with it, and it helped him in his life. He says to me,
"You can squeeze a building, but it is its function that makes it beautiful"

gangsters

I am with the bees, and with joseph. I am curious how people from different cultures and backgrounds look after bees. I have been contacting Muslims who might be able to show me something about the Islamic faith.

I'm wandering past the botanics in sheffield, and one of the people I've contacted gets back to me. He first of all tells me that there is this event going on in his religion, and that I ought to go to it.

I'm near the synagoge in sheffield.
This Muslim chap phones me, the only one to get back to me from my messages, he is telling me how I can learn this stuff.

He says I need to go to this place.

I wander looking for this place described, only find this empty wearhouse, near the synagogue. Dad and James find me here. We look around.

I find a large room on the first floor full of plants growing. They are all kales and mustard leaf plants. I know this must be Richards growing space, I can tell by the plants, and the way they are growing and the feel of the place.


I am going to show dad and James this, but they have to go off, so I am now left on my own, as I want to stay to explore.

They go, and no sooner have they gone, when I hear new voices in the main hall entrance to the building, and the main lights to the building are switched on.

"Oh no". Think, "I've left my bike unlocked in the hall, it will get stolen!"

The voices start shouting and yelling when they see my bike, not because they want to steal it, but because its a sign that I am in the building.

I hear rushing of footsteps up the stairs, they are coming to get me! I am terrified. I feel this must be some secret gangster group or something, and I've broken into there building.

There is only one thing to do, jump down to the ground floor from this balcony. I can see a foam mattress that I can aim for. Its that or nothing. They will kill me if they catch me, I know. I must take this risk, "after all," I think to myself " it may all turn out to be a dream anyway,"

I jump....