a series of dreams: april 17th

Im with Conor. We are arranging to have a meeting, what house we will meet at, what road; all the details. We start talking about what astronomical events we want to align with. – when we begin to think about it, I loose my ability to talk. It all becomes too much for words…

Other friends turn up. They bring photos with them of past gatherings. These photos have a magical effect, and make a gathering happen before our eyes.
Now im with Charley, my bee friend from Coed Hills. She has become an amazing jazz singer. Im really impressed with the singing. She finished the song shouting her head off!

Im now traveling from Grannies house back to Sheffield. Im traveling belly down on a skateboard. I really need a poo! Oh no! its too late! I’ve pooed myself! The skateboard gets stuck in the leaf-mold that’s in the path. Now i'm in a woodland. Its ok now, that i've pooed myself, cos there is no-one around and there's nothing to be ashamed about. I can clean it off with the leaves I think to myself. Its actually quite a funny situation! Im now getting to the allotment. I'm looking for planks on the way, so that I can make some more raised beds.

I meet a person on the way to the allotment. He tells me that a storm is coming. Now im no longer heading to the allotment, but instead I am heading to a camp up the valley at a point surrounded by mountains. Ive got to bring this message about the storm to my friends who are camping up there. I arrive at the camp and allready the skys are looking stormy… the wind is rising and there a looming dark purple clouds heading our way at rapid speed. One of the tents gets caught in gust of wind and we have to grab it and hold it down to stop it getting blown away. I manage to grab it and so does James my brother and then a few others join in and soon we manage to get it re-secured to the ground. I feel very proud and strong.

Then a big flash of lightning occurs and we hear loud thunder. We know its on its way and we start imagining the worst. I see in my minds eye people parachuting down out of the sky in the storm, getting blown this way and that, totally on a whim to the weather. As they drop through the sky I see some of them fall to the ground with broken parachutes. We can expect one or two to die…

James, my bro, has now become a leader and is too busy to be holding tents down, so I take over with getting the tents secure…. I hope I can get them down before the storm comes…

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I wake at five with this dream, then fall back to sleep and enter this dream.
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Im at a dance on a school trip. Its come to the end and we have to leave and get in the bus to go back to the school. I get dropped off on the way back, and in the process of leaving the bus I remember ive left something where I was sitting so try to get back onto the bus to get it. It’s a hat. This girl that I upset on the bus locks the bus so that I cant get back on to get my hat. I go round the back of the bus to get on there and she locks that too. It seems she is determined to stop me getting on the bus. Oh well, its only a hat! I can leave it behind. I must have done something really awful that upset her badly…. I cant think what that must have been.

Im now at a party. Its getting towards the end of the night, and im feeling tired and low. This girl I was with had to leave me and im feeling upset that im not with anyone. This new girl sees me feeling down and lonely and comes over, just as im putting myself to bed. She climbs into bed with me, and then asks if im comfortable. I say yes. She asks me what im up to tomorrow. I tell her that tomorrow is a day for doing nothing. She smiles. I probably do need to do something tomorrow, but right now, id rather not think about tomorrow. Im so comfortable hear next to this girl. As I get more comfortable, I take off my many layers of clothing that im wearing, and she does the same. Her underwear is this red and black dress, and I can now feel her skin touching me. I put my arm round her and she is all sweaty, and unpleasant to touch. This is not so nice as I’d imagined it to be! She puts her leg around my waste – this is something shes clearly experience with, shes thinking – “now were gona have sex” – now this other girl comes into view – one of her friends. She tells her that shes gota sort it out, that shes been flirting too much, and shouldn’t be doing this to me. I'm no longer feeling it, now that I know that i'm being watched. It all feels wrong. There's heavy rock music going on and I don’t want to be here. The girl with her leg round me gets off me and puts some more clothes on and goes over to the other girl, her friend, and gets into an argument with her. They say things I cant remember, and then they part, the girl first girl leaving the situation, leaving me with her friend, the second girl. She looks really upset. I go over to her. I ask her how shes feeling. She says shes just got to look in her bag for a minute. She exaggerating her feelings – I can see that. As the heavy rock music continues, I try to comfort her, and think ~maybe this girl isn't as bad as the first?” She is no better – she just wants sex, nothing more – all the fake tears and looking in her bag is just a trick to seduce me! I leave and think lets just keep on dancing to the music. Now the music is not so bad….

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Im with a friend. We are on a walk through the park, and all of a sudden a police car drives into view. My friend gets all panicky, and starts running, for what reason, I cant think. Hes got nothing to hide. I run after him – “why are you running?” I ask. “now look what you’ve done- they are driving after us now, cos they saw you running! You don’t have anything to hide on you, do you?”

“we actually I do – ive got all this weed!” he replies.

“Oh shit! Now were in for it!” I say.

We are hiding on this bank, while one police car, and another circle around looking for us. We crouch down into a bush and wait and wait. We dare not move. It slowly gets dark… we wait all through the night, as we can still here the police cars driving round and can see there lights… soon they will get the dogs out and then we’ll be in for it!

Just a dusk we get up and move – there's a gap.
“hey why don’t you just chuck it in a hedge?” – why didn’t I ask this to him before?
“ive got more back at home” he says. “If they find me they will search the house.”

“Oh!” this is such a fucked up situation! Now, at dawn, we can hear the helicopter coming and we see infra red lights and all sorts flashing around us… “lets get back to the house asap to get this sorted out!”

We get back to the house without being seen. Lets hope that they will give up the search….