Releasing anger

I was playing a role in a play. It was quite a lead role that i had chosen to do. i thought that it would suit me.

The rehearsals were in a church hall and the final play was going to be performed in the big cathedral. I had forgotten all about the play, and consequentially missed all of the rehearsals. The date for the play was coming up soon, and the organisers contacted me to remind me that there were no more rehearsals. They told me that if i didn't want to do it, that was ok, since they had got other people to fill in my role during the dress rehearsals .

So the date for the play came up, and my friends from the housing coop group turned up to watch the play. One of my friends called JJ got in a fight outside in the yard, with a really fat guy that was twice his size. He had taken up boxing in the last few weeks and it had kinda gone to his head, so he was convinced that he could take on the fat guy. JJ was also shape shifting with a friend of a friend, called Jon, and between the two of them they were in this fight with this big guy who was at least twice the size of them. It was clear that they were making no difference to this big guy, so they gave up. they asked me if i could step in for them, to protect them, so i did at first, but my efforts were no better. There was no anger coming from this big fat guy though. He seemed to enjoy being attacked, since he knew that it would make little effect. He told me how to really punch, "concentrate all your attention into the knuckle of your middle finger", he said. I became stronger in this play fight, and felt myself releasing stored up anger through this game.

Just before the concert started, Rosa had to leave early, to go and pick up a costume that she had made, and told me that she would not be able to stay for the play, so would say by to me outside. I said "five minutes?", she said, "no less, one minute".

A friend from a long way back turned up for the beginning of the play. He and his very christian friends were taking over the play to turn it into some kind of religious ceremony. This is why Rosa had left, - some how she knew... but i was left feeling "i don't want to take part in this!"
The christian rock singing starts up and it feels like we are the ones they are trying to convert.